Milk falls into my cup of coffee.
Carefully, I swish the pitcher while
Perfecting the art of latte.
Bubbles all velvety from the perfect aeration.
I made a Rosetta-
though not perfect,
it's enough to make me smile.
Reality. Time plays with me because I don't have patience.
Ugh. My patience needs some work.
I'm in love with a certain type of mess.
The idea of living your life on the run for the fun of it yet you are securely stable.
Weird enough that I am still drowning myself in my own insecurities.
*Oh, what a mess I am!
I'm a mess. I'm a mess of mistakes.
I cried, bent, and got burned but I stood up and spoke my mind.
I never deserved to be treated like trash
Because I **** you not when I say I am a diamond.
I am a diamond that you threw away.
I'll ******' shine my luster so that you'll go blind.
I'll ******' shine.
Candle lit room
Illuminated by moon light
A faint smile from the unknown lady of the night
I found her wandering in the boulevard
She's smiling for a person with unsatisfied carnal desires
She undresses and starts spreading sheets above us
Faint scent of her hair
A beauty, no doubt
I listened to her stories with a lit cigarette
How she used to be an honor student
She undresses me and kisses me
She knows where to lead her mouth and hands
She moves- making me quiver with her damp thighs
I will never know your name.
Only the shared cigarette and your story
She slides it in- Moaning, scraping, pulling, tugging.
I lost myself in ecstasy falling in my vivid dreams in the hedonist dimension of the universe.
*She grabbed my wallet and ran.
She opened it; and saw a picture of herself in my arms as a toddler.
heart break makes me disturbingly weird.
There. You saw me- my weaknesses, my strengths, my vulnerabilities.
My love, you are no longer "my love".
You kicked me out of the door
After all these years of me giving love to you.
Thanks, I needed the exit long ago.
My love that's no longer my love,
You never went out of your way for me
and I always covered you for it all these years.
You know what I could do
But I choose not to
Because I will NEVER stoop down to your level.
Thank you for the memories.
Thank you for the lessons.
Thank you for for raising my standards.
I will never settle for anything less than what I deserve.
from the lady who loved you so much that she'd climb mountains for you but you'd never do the same, who realized that she's worth more than how you treated her, who helped you go where you are now, who gave so much love to you without expecting anything in return except your ******* time, who you kicked out of your life without pain in you heart, without any regret.
PS. I will never settle for anything less than my value. Thank you for making me realize all these things.
I do not deserve the treatment you gave me, you worthless *******.
I am letting my eyes bleed from my heart until there's none left for me to shed.
I am squeezing everything I feel until I am dried up so that I may become whole again.
*God, hold my heart tight enough so that pieces will stick back together again; and it may become whole again.
God help me