I want to indulge myself in a new color,
but the chosen color is not so colorful.
I want to go too long with my loneliness
but the path is not so wonderful.
I took a break, wait a moment, I thought, rethought
to again started my journey.
I found you there, with lots of happiness, elation.
Deep Breath, I filled up with energy.
I start my journey again, but it has not a destination.

Dad,you all always be mine super hero.
Now you are shining like a star in clear and cloudy sky.
Your Shine make me cry.
you are too far way from me.
I Can't reach to  you.
I Can't catch  you.
I always miss you.

I become a such song which is never sung by anyone.
I become  a flower which is never plucked by anyone.
I become a road which is never travelled by anyone.

My Words Ruined me..
But You Ruined my life.
You(God ) provides everything for other ,but not for me.
You(God)always  take me away from my real happiness.
You(God) never makes me complete.
I have Nothing in pocket ,if it have you steal it away
You(God) looks happy when I am sad.
You(God)makes me sad without any reason.
You(God) always makes me looser every time.
I become a victim of your this kind of act

My Hearts cry when you(God )Such thing with me

Sometime,Somewhere when i walk on the road
I realize the things.
Start Counting the time in inverse way.

I realize that My Opportunity never comes for me.
I waited till last ,but they don't .
My Happiness never comes for me ,
I waited till last ,but they don't .

My Inner Strength become fade.
I become a  lesser bright,
I choose the other way ,my demon call me.
provide me the fake happiness ,fake opportunity.

but when the time passes  away my inner demon become weaker,
I become a stronger enough .
Suddenly when My real happiness and Opportunity  opportunity comes to me .
then i become a weaker to accept all this.

I am Cruel for every one.
I make fool every one.
How I accept you by knowing that truth
I am not  for you.
The God play Vital role in that he select me
and make me imperfect.
By this way i become a looser once more

Daily I open my e-mail
Check my inbox and search  horoscope.
There  I found new horoscope daily
I read my love horoscope there
which  Described Your and My love relation status.

But today when I open  my e-mail,check my inbox,search horoscope.
there is no mail related to horoscope.

I become worried about you,little bit despondent for you,disquiet
After waiting for long time.
when I press refresh button
I received a new mail
It is my Horoscope ,I become a happy once again.

Light looks very good .
but not when ,they are not from your city.
Faces looks very good
but not when ,you are too far away from my city.
You tolerate me several times
when you needed me
I never tolerate you
when  you need me.
Now my time has been change
I change according to you
and you change according to time.
I have lots of time for you.
and You have no time for me.

I am Day Dreamer.
Dreams lots for something.
Realization in my dreams
Encouragement in my dreams.
Selfishness in my dreams.
The dreams are dreamed by open eyes but
When I  close my eyes they disappear

I want to go for a long walk but with you.
I want to listen ,but only you.
I want to dream,but only with you.
I want to live ,but only with you.
I want to stay ,but with you.
but you never want me.
you don't read my eyes.
if you want then i will close my eyes forever.

i think i am not perfect for you.

What to said and with  whom to said.
When to said and how much to said.
whom to accuse and why to accuse.
lots of thing are not happening according to me.
why lots of curse for me.always for me.evertime for me.
no wishes for me.
always i sacrifies.
always i sacrifies.

I lay my down- head
Cut it down with a sharp  weapon.
What you want from me,
Why you want all this from me.
Why I am become victim of your this kind of act.
Why you left rest of other people from this universe.
Why i am ,why i am, every time
I have lots of thing  too gain,nothing to loose
I have lots of thing too loose,but nothing to gain.

While I raise my arm,feeling like I am on the top..
Suddenly  I realize that I am not where I am looking for,
I close my eye to change the view,
but again the situation is get changed,environment get changed,
Two path comes in  front of  me,I am not willing to go anywhere,
I really don't want to go anywhere,but I have to go for success,
But I don't finding any success anywhere... No success anywhere,no success anywhere.
Hope that there will be one day when  I  have few success in my life

The tremle situation comes in front of me,
my heart sorrow..
my eyes get dry...
my thoughts are right but I become fantasy for her,
I always tried my level best ,but situation put me  in a wrong way,
Now I finding  way toget rid from this place ,but the situation put me in a wrong way.

Why my tears become colorless for her.
Why my presence become invisible for her.
Why i become heartless for her.
Why my smile become tears for her.
Why my voice become noise for her.
Why her silence become death for me
Why her ignorance become death for me.

The time comes and move,but i am not.
Why i am waiting for responses.
I know there is no answer for my questions.
Now i moving more faster than time,to destroy my self.
without carrying for others.

Why I am caring for others,
but ,other not care for me.
Why Other become lovable for me,
but, I am not for others.
Why I am so upset for others,
but, others not for me.
Why I am crying for others,
but, others not for me.
Why  I am always want to see happiness of  others,
but, others not for me.
Why I am always demanding my happiness from there,
But ,not from me.
Why I am always blaming God,rather then my self..
It always makes tears in my eyes.when i see my happiness with others

Today I realize that , I am loser,
I never  become a good friend ,
I never  become a good son,
I never become a good lover,
I never become a good brother,
I never become a good person,
I never being good on Anybody's Expectations,
Now,people starts Pushing me towards  death,
People starts wishing for my death.
People starts wishing for my death.
Everyone  starts wishing for my death.

Why the Sunshine for every one ,not for me

Why the Rain Drops for everyone,not for me.

Why everyone has its destination,not  for me.

Why i am felling  Vagrant and everyone has its destiny..

Un galtiyo ki kya saza doon main  khud ko ,jo maine kabhi ki hi nhi.
Main he kasoor war hoon un galtiyo ka,jo kabhi hue he nhi.
Kyun  dohartaa hoon main wo galtiya .jo kabhi ki he nhi..
Main khud  he nhi janta hoon khud ko,,
Un galtiyo ko,kyun ** jate hain wo galtiya jo kabhi hue he nhi.