I'm sorry,
i can't love you.
i'm sorry,
you never said something sooner.
i'm sorry,
but this isn't going to work.
i'm sorry,
but we are not for each other.
i'm sorry,
i don't long to talk to you.
i'm sorry,
i find your swearing so unattractive.
i'm sorry,
i hope you find someone else.
i'm sorry,
but what i have to give is not for you.
i'm sorry,
i don't want to share it with you.
i'm sorry,
but i'll help you along the way.
i'm sorry,
for you & your sad life.

There's a first time for everything,
but, today, was the very first for me.
I walked up to the 1st floor,
pushed right through the door.
I found my way in,
it was a little pack like a sardine tin.
I sat by the chair,
she had wavy hair.
She invited me to her room,
i thought that was my doom.
And then it begun,
everything i had run from,
was now being faced.
I was almost in a daze.
I raised my chin,
and begin to breathe in.
This is where, it all became *the first time.

The grass is greener on the other side, they say. Question is, where is the other side? What grass are they actually talking about, i used to wonder. As i grew older and made many mistakes, i realised that the grass they were talking about is superficial. But indeed, i would agree that the grass is greener. Greener as in the way you feel. Do you remember the first time you saw something breathtaking? Maybe it was the sunrise by the beach or the sunset beyond the mountains. Whatever it was, it gave that feeling of true appreciation of life itself. The feeling of gratitude for everything that had been given to you. And to me, that may be the meaning to "the grass is greener on the side". Although you should remember that the grass isn't always greener on the other side. But that's another story..

A month when I felt like dying,
Everyday, endless crying.
It was a so hard,
Harder than pork lard.
My rippled heart stood at guard,
Fighting the tears as you passed.
The amount of maybes ,
Could have caused me rebbies.
I never want to go back there,
Not even at a high fair.

How do you leave ?
How do you just decide to go.
Far away as you walk into the light,
Far away from this place you call home.
Who is going to stop you from yourself,
Who is going to notice your absence from the next 24 hours.
What will people say,
What will people do.
Why should they care now,
Why would they ask how.
When will i become oblivion,
When will i be needed.
Where will i end up ?
Where would i rest.
And most of all, will I be just another *salt particle mixed in the ocean

Your smile,
made my heart run miles.
your eyes,
sent me on a mystery ride.
your face,
was glowing with such beauty today.
your hair,
was messily tied yet, you looked amazing.
you, in general,
is who i couldn't take my eyes off.
your soul,
seemed so clean and perfect.
yours,
**is who i hope to be someday soon

I hope to be there by the morning,
to see you in the sun.
i love the heat brush past my windsheild.
i know you'll be there,
you'll say hello.
you're smiling in love,
we'll know by tonight.
savannah,
we sum up perfection like a handbook.
we'll know more but,
until then.
baby, i spent my life wondering.
wondeing when i'll find you.
i need you to know that,
everything makes sense when you're with me.
savannah,
walk out to the country evening,
the sea breeze brushes your hair to the side of your neck.
all these feelings that are so hard to find,
are just there.
believe me,
we'll know my tonight.
but until then,
goodbye, *savannah.

my mind runs away to you,
i know where it wants to be.
i want you to know,
you're the one designed for me.
keep your head down & make it to me.

so sick of this loneliness,
so much to get off my chest.
i'll wait here patiently.
you're the one made for me,
a distant stranger that i will complete.

i know you're out there,
**just make it to me.

You rised, you brought hope.
You gave light to every dark corner.
As you continued rising,
The darkness begin despising.
A few people accepted the challenge,
To fight their darkness.
Some failed, some succeeded.
As you begin to slowly die down,
We got scared.
Scared of the monsters that were getting ready.
To begin the torture,
And so they leered around.
Waiting for more souls and minds.
Kids cried and ask "why did you leave me?"
You gave no response ...
So at the end, their hopes were crushed.
All the trust lost, forever gone.
So sun, why did you go away?
And sway away back to the end of the bay.

It seemed like it had been years,
since you brought me tears.
It seemed like we were in different places,
only imaginations through short gazes.
It seemed like everything was forgotten,
all somehow just rotten.
It seemed like there was no hope,
after it became a *******.
It now seems like things patch,
the unlock of the latch.
It now seems that nothing turns out as it seems,
even in my dreams.

It's in the a.m where I find myself thinking about you at times.
I guess you were the one, the first one.
It's amazing how it's been so long,
Yet you're the one I think about.
I read your writings, amazes me and keeps me in a daze.
Maybe it was for the best but it's okay, let's skip the rest.
We're both different people now.
Years worth of memories, sorted into different categories.
This one's for you and us or rather what was of us.

I was there,
my heart pounding,
my mind wandering,
as I heared you out.
Trying to keep it together,
to understand me & you, forever.
My tears rolled down,
right by the side of your arm,
though you meant to do no harm.
At that moment I disarmed.
And for the first time,
i accepted the comfort,
in my very fort.
And then i knew,
that this was it,
it was merely a moment or rather,
**The Moment

And maybe, I'll be happy all over again.

I know* what i am supposed to be
I know what i have to currently do
I know what i have to eat to keep my body healthy
I know how the world teaches us about love
I know the pain of losing someone you love
I know the satisfaction of having your fav burger
I know the feeling of walking late into class and having everyone stare
I know what it's like to miss someone that your heart literally hurts
I know why day becomes night
I know what i dislike
I know the sickening feeling you get when you're havin' a ****** week
I know, I know- the comfort words.

The problem is, I think I know what I may actually not.

Guess I was a fool,
to think you were pretty cool.
The karma came back i see,
guess i couldn't run far from it so, gotta let it be.
Hate that I let myself fall so easy,
cause you stumped on me as you pleased.
Let the war be done with cause just like every other war,
you left your mark on me.
I'll never forget you, east.