Piercing through
my ever insistent darkness
an orchestra of emotions
reaching out
... reaching in

Playfully,
my dorment butterflies
awaken
by the touch of
your lips on mine

A million memories
of a million kisses
my neck, my body...all over
kisses all the time

but, as the months
slowly turn into years
I have only fading memories
... of a few

I wished
I saved some
for these
rainy days

Emotions scrambled
A labyrinth of unknown
Feelings
Roadblocks

Running
Stalling
Screaming
Feeling

­Running into
Nowhere
The world
Is just too big

Screaming
Shouting
Should I go
Should I stay

Do I even know the answers
… anyway?

Although the silence

was necessary,

to heal my hurt -


my heart

and soul

aches to hear the sound

of your laughter

In the morning light

Happy birds sing their duets

The owl sleeps and dream



A willow tree weeps for rain

The thirsty brown leaves frowning



A thunderous storm

Soaking up the desert sand

Frogs leaping in ponds

I miss you
With every waking
Tortured moment,
It's painful

I have to let you go
Little by little
I am scattering
Your memory

And as they fade
I throw them back into the universe
Ashes to ashes
I'm letting go

disguised
perfect smile
not letting anyone in
...but you

my non existent laughter
my words
my solace
I've been lonely for too long

In a perfect world
we are lovers
In my world
you will never be mine

I've been lonely for too long

As the night darkens
lonely heart weeps at stars
the sun smiled brightly

Liquid pleasures
often, the company
lonely poets keep
when they cannot sleep
while they... weep

Do you ever,
just sit with your head in your hands
wiping your lonely tears
remembering...

Love
in it's truest form
sees no colour
Love is love

Love
feels deeply
it is always kind
Love is love

Love
dances with hearts
breathes through souls
Love is love

Love
to the end of a love
to a final chapter on two hearts
Love is love

love is
the space
between my heart
and yours
when you pull me closer

If this love is a fire

I will burn

I will walk

I will dance this fire dance



Eyes gazing

holding a

a river of emotions

we have been denied for an eternity



The blood burning in my veins

My emerald view, glowing

You look at me, and I know

I will risk my heart, once more

Beautiful lyrical words

drawing a cunning belief

of everlasting

adoration

Utter deceit

painful, heart wrenching agony

evoking more emotion

perhaps, pain is our

                                    ... elusive love affair

Today I sing
A song of love
Of tender words, like
I love you

Today I am grateful
For the beauty in
Our souls
Merging our tears with our hearts

Sand between my toes
a breeze
... inhaled memories
almost forgotten ...

I kneel down
and pray
for your memory
to always stay

lazy day, ponder
memories of you linger
memories fading...

You are always here
keeping me warm through the night
while I pray for morn'

Waves washing away
The whispers from my soul
My heart breaking

Drowning all emotions
Wrapping my thoughts with a pretty bow
Willingly letting go
Of all of you

In my solace
I reflect
A glorious
New day

Whispers of hope
our beautiful, misled dreams
crazy fantasies
hopeless dreams

the words you whispered
tenderly embraced
in your comforting arms
a web of lies

wish I could
undo those promises
such deceit
in the midnight hour

our lonely hearts
... cheated

I fell in love with him
The way he looked at me
His gentle touches
Third eye kisses

Moments and memories
Destined to last forever

I fell in love with him
... slowly
Then all at once

Your beautiful brown eyes
A window to your soul
I can tell you everything
My mommy, my friend

I know you love me, unconditionally
It is the one certainty
I have always known
Your love for me never questioned

Mommy, you are my anchor
In my happy days
And my darkest days
My mommy, I love you unconditionally

I awake in the early hours

birds singing

enjoying their feast

my hands exploring your body


Naked flesh on my fingertips

perfectly dreaming

about your touch

ever abandoned


Sleepy slumber dreaming of you

in loving embrace

interrupted dreams

with morning brew


These are the moments

I look forward to

Until the day you search for

my naked body on your fingertips

Layers of me, all

around your body

our legs entwined

my breath in your neck


Stroke through me hair

Pull me closer,


Butterfly kisses

Strawberry whispers

and bourbon promises

all through the night


Morning coffee

wearing only your T-shirt

and freshly

squeezed juice

These are the moments I treasure,

whether you remember them

or not


These are my precious moments

When you loved me

before the complications of the day

took over what our hearts

and souls needed

Your hugs
comforts my sadness
You know my pain
my pillar of strength

With you I am safe
no hurt will penetrate my soul
We share so much
the good and bad

You gather my silent tears
and water our pretty garden
We are best friends
we need each other

This is no coincidence
our souls searched
and found the most
precious friendship

You are
a good man
I am
truly blessed to have you in my life

Your acceptance of the inner
most fragile souls
you hardly notice
how you are adored

You have taught me tolerance
to guard my words
you hardly notice
the impact you had in my life

I admire your integrity
and zero tolerance for
disrespect in any form
we connected and remain in our truth

Yes, you are a queen
My brown skin queen, my friend
You hardly notice
the impact you had in my life

My Angela
My beautiful friend
My brown skin queen,
my friend... forever

I believed you
held on to every word
I will not make the
same mistake again

I cannot live
without you
I cannot crave
without you

Your touch
I will remember
Your tender kisses
I will miss, in my lonely hour

I give you my words
treasure them
I give you my mind
always be kind

I give you my heart
but it will surely die
So instead hold on to my soul
it's the most precious gift of all

Your emerald eyes

a window to your beautiful soul

your sensitivity to mankind

zero tolerance for the unkind

Writing about you

is harder than any poem I have ever written

you are

the purest soul

You amaze me

every single moment

your commitment

to your dreams

I am blessed

to be in your presence

even more blessed

to be your mommy,

                     I love you

                                      ... unconditionally

When I looked into

your beautiful bright eyes

for the very

first time

I knew love

Unconditionally,

Consistently,

Everlasting

Years of the joy of watching you

grow into the

amazing man

brave and strong

I look at you

in absolute awe

You are amazing

and your mommy loves you,

                                              ... unconditionally

My voice of love, speaks
waiting for your soul, seeking
find me under, stars

I loved you
I trusted you.
it's always been
... just you

I do not
remember
ever loving anyone
... but, you

I allowed you in to
break down my walls
letting a little love in
... slowly

You were scared, too
kept me at arms length, often
patiently, we waited for
our precious times

You broke through
my decade of silence
you knew my fears
you knew my heart

Showing me
my strength
my courage
I believed in myself again

I finally had to let you go
no fairy-tale ending for us
I needed to heal my soul
...all over again

I fell in love with you
when I knew it was hopeless
you needed me, and I
just couldn't be there for you

We do only have
one greatest love
I wasn't yours
You weren't mine

A well thought out evening
A luxury lavender soak
I lay back and inhale
relaxed and happy

I get dressed
silky stockings of course
revealing dress
black pointy heels

I do this for me
This is who I am
I embrace all things
silky and ****

My favorite cozy spot
A cider and pizza ordered
I sit back and take in this moment
I reflect...

"Perfect" Ed Sheeran
a slice of pizza
and tears
sipping my liquid comfort

Asking for the bill
I am sobbing
you are not here
I am alone

The one who used to call me
his perfect love
has left me all alone
dinner for one was not part of the plan.

Holding you close
Your heartbeat
Close to mine
Stay in my arms, my love

My head on your chest
Your arms
Playing with my hair
Our bodies gliding to beautiful sounds

Our perfect moment
Just us...
Our love don't
Need any words...tonight

You awakened, stirred the inner most
Part of my being

Every look
Every smack
Every part of my body wanted more,
Needed more

As I lay in the darkness
I am consumed with how you felt
In every part of me

I am asked by my heart and mind
To not feel too much,
So, for now.... I shall OBEY!

I often stare
into your ocean eyes
emotional waves...
crashing through my heart
and soothing
my soul

To wake up with the chirping birds,

inhaling the jasmine scents

and the sound of the rain

dancing to the song of a new dawn

Gloriously

grateful for

yet another

beautiful day

The night's silence
chirping birds not yet in slumber
reminding me,
I am not alone.

Painfully remembering
Your loving embrace
my heart aches
Once again,

Share all the love
within your soul.
one day,
it will find
its way
into your broken heart
... and stay.

I turn to look at you
just one glance
its not perfect
somewhat broken

I look at you
all of you
you look at me, but you don't really see me
im a little bent

and you
just ... love that

The sun seem brighter

The icy winter

A little warmer

Our hearts, a little lighter

It's been incredibly

Difficult to allow

Any beauty in ...

It's time for me to exhale ...

I'm breathing you in

... One moment at a time

Inhale with me

The smell of blossoms

Float with me

On this beautiful

Cloud of hope,

Perhaps, even love.

We have many choices
my biggest was
to love you in person
or in memory

Painful memories
flooding in
when I least expect it
suffocating all reason to breathe

My soul craves
your absence
my heart aches
with my lips

but, I still choose
to love you
... only
in memory

I look up at the night sky
I see you between the stars
The half moon smiling
as I close my window

Draw the curtains
another night, another wish
I fall into a deep slumber
forgotten memories
revealed in my dreams

When your kisses were still
warm against my cheek
When I could still feel
your breath against my neck

At dawn I am reminded
that you will only
continue...
to live
... only in my dreams

I have been in love
many times before
but only once
did I truly give my heart

Only once
did I truly understand
why we love
how we love

Your last breath,
it was at that moment
that I knew
I could never, ever truly love another.

I used to gaze

Into your eyes for hours

hold you

... while sleeping



Greet you

with sleepy eyes

coffee for two

laughing... as one



I never stop

thinking about you

How can I?

When it's always been you!



Your hugs

I keep them close

Your voice

I still hear, clearly.



My soul needs

you more than my

aging body

and broken heart



In my dreams

I am not alone

How could I be?

You are right there with me!

Holding your hands
breathing in your scent
Your tender whispers of love
found their way into my soul

Love has captured
               My cynical heart

This is our infinity
                This is our forever

My face drenched
My hair soaked
Our bodies cling

The sound of thunder
Rain gloriously cleansing our past
Our kiss
Our dance
Our rain
Our love

A memory of our first glance
Our first embrace
Our first kiss

This is our rain
Our dance
Our love
Hope
Trust

Complete at last
Gone with the past

We all have a story,
to tell ...
or keep hidden in our archive
of hurt, loss, love and pain

The quilt will consume you,
Let it go!
forgive those ...
... forgive yourself, often

Live a life without
the usual expectations
be your authentic self
let it go... exhale

We have all made mistakes,
some we can laugh about
most would have taught us
a valuable lesson