Turn Off The Lights

Turn Off The Lights Sep 2014

The bet

You played with the chemistry we had,
I know,
All the tension you created,
For me to tingle (in fear) in hope
You would make a move on me

I breathed "I need you to move away from me"
You said
Make me
I laughed "I could show you but I would have to **** you"
You said
Oh, really?
I confessed "I could never get enough of you"
You said
Is that so?
I whispered "I could spend the rest of my days with you"
You said
Prove it

You said "I will show how to make you fall in love"
I said
Wanna bet?
I said "I will show you what it feels like to be loved"
You said
Wanna bet?

I won.

**So why does it feel like I lost everything?

I have to start all over again

#love #lost #tension #bet

Turn Off The Lights Sep 2014

Hand me downs

When you talk to me
All I can hear is
The sound of her voice in yours
When I look into your eyes
All I can see is
Her reflection in yours
She is everywhere
And I have looked beneath your soul too many times
Hoping
Praying
I would find something that belongs to me within you
But
She hides in every corner
And I am in plain sight
A sitting duck waiting to be shot
By the very hands that used to hold me in my sleep
You have never deemed me worthy
Of tucking me in the folds of your heart
And as I lay here in the cold silence of your indifference
I think I realize that maybe
The pieces of you I thought you had given me
Are only scraps of what you gave her
And what she refused to keep.
Maybe, this whole time,
The pieces of you where hand me downs
From the one person I would never be able to accept anything from

**(You never bothered to give me something new)

I gave you my brand new heart and you gave me nothing

#love #heart #her #new #me #something #hand #downs #scraps

Sep 2014

hєαvєn cαrαwαч

Don't Mess With My Love

They can **** you in your sleep
Chase you in your dreams
And you will never escape because you're in so deep.
All this pressure is like a finger on a trigger
I'm gonna meet the grave digger
And tell him 6 feet ain't enough
Don't mess with my love.

I'm gonna bury the memory in the corners of hell
And I'm gonna do it by myself
Make sure all the screams can't be heard
Gonna cover you in dirt

Suffocate you just to see how you like it
I won the fight this time, because I got the last hit
Next time don't play with the lion
Or you just might get bit

Take one more swing, I dare you
I'm going to watch your tan skin turn blue
And I'll have no regrets
Don't mess with my love
Unless you're ready to test the bets

I'm gonna say "6 feet ain't enough to hold a cheater"

#love #heartbreak #poem #poetry #life #pain #death #thoughts #him #you

Turn Off The Lights Sep 2014

I used to say

I used to say
I just want to fall in love

And then

I fell from the clouds and into your world
My heart still hurts from the crash
My soul still remembers the first time
The first time
I saw your face
And I thought

****.

Here it goes.

I feel the veins of my heart leaking blood
Inside my body I am drowning in love
And I can remember I used to say
I just want to fall in love
And though the fall was thrilling
And though you helped me up
You turned around almost instantly
Like switching a light on and off
You light me up and forgot I was shining
You left the room and I still I shine
For you
You left the house and still I shine
For you
You left the world I fell in and still I shine
For you
But you are not watching me.
You found the sun in the garden and I am just a light you forgot in a room.

(I HOPE IT ******* RAINS AND YOU HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE BUT TO COME BACK TO ME AND I SWEAR I WILL SET YOU ON FIRE.)

I won't.

I used to say

I just want to fall in love.

I had forgotten how much
Watching someone you love
Love someone else
Burns
My skin is on fire and I wish I could remove this physical cloak of pain to jump in a lake and forget the touch of your finger
On my flesh
I want to expand my soul until I the hurt disappears
My body is too small to feel so much
I am suffocating in my own body
I love you so much
And I hurt so much
I want to feel it all
I want my cries to be a storm
I want to wake up the whole neighbourhood and tell them with rain and lighting and thunder how you were my home
I want to find your house and destroy the roof so you understand what it is like
to be homeless
I want you to look me up straight into the eyes and say
I'm sorry I forgot to turn you off

nothing beats unrequited crushes. But for the sake of poetry I will call it love

#love #home #hurt #nature #storm #left #homeless #thunder

Sep 2014

liki

September 20th 2014

I met a boy with the sun in his eyes and the sky on his hair and a brain far more elaborate than anyone could compare
But this boy and I were never meant to be,
For he was the golden land and I was the gloomy sea
And every time we touched, we would have to part again,
And I was in love
full of tidal waves and hurricanes
But all I ever did was flood him
Destroying houses and shattering window panes
The waves churn inside my entire body
Calm and collected, smooth sailing
I wasn't always the sea, I used to be a girl
But one day I told myself
"I will always carry a torch for you."
but you were the one who set me on fire
And I became the gloomy sea to avoid the flames
But sometimes at night
When the moon glows against the black
I can still feel the phantom burning in my chest

Sep 2014

Third Legacy

Do You Remember Me?

—Do You Remember Me?

while the warmth of the sunlight's kiss
in the ascent of the blissful morning
approach the beauty of your crimson lips?

Do You Remember Me?

in the rise of the bright moon?
like your eyes when you look through mine
the pair I hope to see soon

Do You Remember Me?

when floods of rain starts to pour?
like my eyes that shed endlessly
with tears of pain I cannot endure

Do You Remember Me?

have you ever even thought of me?
or was I just another moment
to pass on by so carelessly?

Help me remember to forget

#love #sad #life #heart #hope #thoughts #sorrow #remember #you #me

Turn Off The Lights Sep 2014

(Breathe)

I have taken a breath today
And for the first time in days
It wasn't stained with the sound of your beating heart

I took a

( breath )

and it was mine alone

You weren't hiding between the pauses in the air
Or lurking around the edges of a word
You weren't tiptoeing behind my every thought
And I wasn't trying to find you out of the corner of my eyes

So I believe I might be

**Halfway out of the dark

It terrifies me that I am moving on

#word #heart #days #you #breathe #eye