maybe the women
in my neighborhood
only knew panic
and outbursts
when situations
feel worse than ever
while i've been
teaching myself
how to be nonchalant,
i'm acting chill
on the outside
but my mind
has been drawing
maps and trails
on how i should get there,
the easiest and safest
route to meet you halfway

"do you see colors?" he asked;
"no, i can hear them," she replied.

do not show me love
in ways that you only know
ask me and i'll tell you how

"i heard a new song from the radio
while driving home," she said;
"what are you waiting for, let's check it out," he replied.

and maybe the child in me
just really needs a playmate
who's gonna surely say yes
whenever i ask them first,
hey, let's hang out, run and play.

there are some nights
when you can’t be asleep
you’re out there partying with your friends
sipping every glass of champagne
jiving to the echoing soundboxes
owning the floor, like a dancing queen
and then, there are also nights
when you should be asleep but you aren’t
you’re there on the cold **** floor
thinking all of the crazy stuff you did last summer
sipping the bottle of beer from the fridge
listening to the cringey music
from the old record player
occasionally tiptoeing,
as if waltzing with an imaginary partner
and finally, there are nights
when no matter how hard you try to sleep
for no reason your eyelids won't heed
you stare through the dark night, across the ceiling
maybe, somehow, you’re awake in someone else's dream
he kept saying your name, whispers in the thin air
and then you sigh, “oh please, let me sleep.”

and once again, my heart skips a beat
daydreaming, my eyes sparkle
red flush, my cheeks contoured
i'm not usually like this, my brain fogs
am i too exposed? my second thoughts
nevermind, i just hope you knew.

but nothing excites
me anymore except
for a starry night sky,
the moon and its phases,
a rainbow which i never
saw coming, the waves
of the sea, a blue sky,
and the sunset after
a long tiring day..

and that night
i knew i wanted
our hands
to be intertwined
but what i wanted the most
is for you to first grab mine
never drop it, hold it tight
when our bodies seemed to cut
the boundary in between
and cross the line
because it's a green
it's indeed a go
says the traffic lights.

you can meet me at twilight
and maybe we'll stay up
until midnight
watch the stars, the moon
and what's beyond
and tell stories we haven't told anyone

it all started with a single hi
three days, three nights
of unstoppable phone conversations
life lessons from three decades
of each other's existence
then, one midnight
you drive past the city lights
to meet me on the other side..

and in every person
that we meet
is a different multiverse..

Dave and Megan:
If the world was ending right in front of my eyes,
And you weren’t there by my side
I don’t know what afterlife could mean
I don’t even know if there is such to begin..

Dave:
I used to pray a lot to the angels and Jesus,
That if I fall in love for the first time in a long time
She should be the one that would make me feel,
Carefree and alive
And then she came at the most unexpected moment
My miracle, my answered prayer.

Megan:
I didn’t know if it was an answered prayer
Or am I just being saved from despair
I used to not to believe in commitments
Because there is a part of me
That hesitates and scares
Trust issues, here and there they exist
But he tried to understand and made me feel home and safe.

Both:
As both of us grew alongside with the twists and blues
The ups and downs we battled through
10 years, an amazing journey
Our love was tested but we
Emerged with victory
Because for us
To love is to decide..

Love is a decision
Falling in love is easy
But staying in love is what
Makes the ride topsy-turvy
As the days pass by
Weeks grow into months
And years went on by and by
When it’s not anymore the
Best foot forward
When euphoria has consumed
All the unbearable fleeting feelings inside
To decide to stay with the person
You choose to commit to
Is what makes love a reality
A lifetime conviction.

If the world was ending right in front of my eyes,
You should be here by my side
You and I, we’ll travel to the afterlife
And nothing can ever tear us apart.

maybe i was wrong
when i believed
that it should age
like a fine wine
because sometimes,
it's only good
when it started.

what scares me the most
when i'm being alone is that
i tend to dig deep through
my darkest thoughts and start
to create chaos and develop wars
against myself.. am i worth it?

We deserve healing,
The kind of healing that cures
Our deepest, hidden, past sorrows;
We deserve relief,
The kind of relief that sets
Us stable and tranquil;
We deserve peace,
The kind of peace that keeps
Us safe from the wars outside;
We deserve warmth,
The kind of warmth that eases
Our troubled minds and heart;
We deserve love,
The kind of love that feels
Home, a sanctuary.
We deserve happiness
We deserve to be treated so right
We deserve a soft landing
We deserve assurance;
We deserve to watch every sunset
And never doubt its glow,
We deserve to wish upon every shooting star
And believe that wishes always do come true,
We deserve this safe space between us
We deserve everything
My love, we deserve each other.

run, baby let's run
one, two one four
new romantics, you and i
escape this town now
leave all the worries behind.

they say what you see is what you get
but what if the walls were built too high,
what would you do to see what's inside?

are you even tastier
than coffee
that i crave for you
even on nights
that i'm widely
awake?

there has to be no pattern,
there's no need to
practice a routine,
just let the cold breeze
seep through your skin,
carry away the
strands of your hair;
there only has to be
freedom from within.

there’s no need to unfold
the sentences that
our mouths wish
to speak;
we can sit there in silence,
stare into space;
the peace and the quiet,
your presence
perfectly fit,
soothing me
beyond limits.

why don't we give
the best for ourselves?
why don't we put
the silver spoon
in our own mouths
and then live
the ******* life
we ever wanted?

the stars have pretty much aligned
when my manifestations did work,
a year ago, i scribbled your name
nine times across a blank page
sending you vibrations that i still exist;

now, mercury is in retrograde
i’ve stopped asking for signs over the weekend
a year later, more than nine, a hundred times
your name appears on my phone screen,
stalling, i'm just staying still
send me a text and let me know if in my life
you still want to exist.

i used to find escape
laughing at your inside jokes
occasionally glancing at the long roads
while we're driving 'round town;
and now, i'm not in the right headspace
you're still filling up my senses.

You don’t have to remind me of my scars
That I have already been seeing everyday
Even the faded ones which were too shy to resurface;

You don’t have to shoot the arrow unto my head
To rip it open just to tell me I have been wrong,
For 27 years, I have lived inside of it..
I have been familiar with every corner
I am used to seek comfort of;

I have been to its amusement park
Thrilled by its own roller coaster ride
Slightly mortified by the same horror booth
With entertainers disguised as ghosts
That weren’t as scary as what they portrayed to be;

I have gone to the forbidden garden
Filled with apple trees, harvested every ripen fruit
And tried to put them inside my mouth
Without chewing them
But the snakes ate me instead;

I have slept with one eye open at night
Gate keep my own thoughts when
One by one they start to wander
Through the woods without a guiding torch;

You don’t really have to tell me what to do next
We aren’t required to cross the finish line all at once
Nobody said this should be a race
The route I am taking might be sloppy, topsy-turvy
But I know I am moving at my own pace.