my curiosity has killed so many cats that i've become as a cat murderer.

because some would rather live in words of little white lies like
"you ARE pretty" "you seem nice" "youre really sweet",
then decipher her own tangled abstruse 'life'.

she's by herself, again.
in isolating darkness
of her snickering and smiling,
at a bright blue screen.
and of that is what most of her nights consists.

Why do i always do this,
i always seem to be that one,
who try a little too hard,
for people who would only put half the effort in.

Maybe the person who seems outgoing, friendly and all ladidas, actually hated.every. single one of you.

*******

Well dont try anyways,
because no matter what,
youre never good enough
at the end of the day.

i knew you tried to believe when u said you loved me, because even i tried too.

of course you wont say anything to me
because youre not the kind of person,
running after them to forgive,
of the careless words you type
behind your computer screen.