Dear ancient true love, Happy New Year Happy birthay.

How do you do blessings.
My maginary best friend indeed many lifetimes it seems we have loved each other-rddpc.
What a wonderful world
That old famed sweet sad song.
Hearing it for what it was meaning with mine inaction,
indeed it crushed my heart on Mothers Day
i still feel the awful pain of my inaction and how I missed my mark
walking away tore me into bits.
I hated misunderstanding you.
I hated being disasociated in my struggle to support myself with honors, with gangs closing each job door I oppened.

Here to wish you belated
many Marry Christmasse
and a Happy New Years belated cards
Happy belated birthdays every year of your life
I always think of you,
my ancient true love

I got a Christmas Card and are making a copy of it found on online
A chosen christmas card as in ancient times,
wishing you many Happy Birthdays too.
A rather well-wishing snowy holiday card, celebrating every blessed month and day of January 30th also.

Though yes i survived, my tragic life filled with love despite surviving and running from serial killers since childhood.
Habitual drug users who bailed themselves out of ******* dues and implicated me and my children's life
in USA-
an unprovoqued hate crime that lasted a life time.
Because of where i was born annoyed them criminals, my social status.
relentless enemies stalked me for years and my children.

Ever and ever demonizing me trashing me to my own grown kids in places I shined best and brightest.

These enemies repaid my good for evil destroying the precious character integrity of my own grown children.

from these greedy crazed scumb
I took billion blows, my dead silence.

Despite their greed and malice I feel sacred in the motherhood
department.

mainly I was hated for my PHD survival skills along with my check book lacking funds I could never ballance and they could not steal.

I remain filled with love
The love you showed me woke me up with deepest understanding
of all you are.
Here with deep infinite gratitude for your pain your patience your sacrifices, your loss.

I remain indebted to you and your beloved Mom, your parents for all eternity
I did accept her benefit the treasure friensmdship she crowned me with
for all eternity for every lifetime.

I shall forever grieve such loss.
I lived with stabbing regret to not have contacted your precious and mine Mom again.

For all your wounds and blows my silences gave you unintentionally
for all you offered me, for missing the mark
for your offer for a happier easier life, filled with treasures in heaven and on Earth
a great family made of true love for true love, for companionship my great treasures, along with  
the joy of eternal true love i gound in you for me,
I love you , not in a time sensitive matter but forever.

My heart sobs for my poor beloved children and because of my silence missed up on the happiness joy your beloved parents, your siblings and best friends, meant for us four.

The enemy couldn't **** me pregnant on the various ways attempted nor steal my children so the enemy I did not linch waited.
This horror true story i hid fed culprit waiting to end me, divide me, and lie about my heroic surviving skills.

The enemy stalked me tracked my car and slowly went for my in-laws to trash me to the 11 winds to everyone who was fund of me, who loved me treasured me cherished me, admired me- my children

my chikdren the object of their evil obsession never ended..

You beloved were all my heaven sent the forces of good and understanding.

Such a precious family i found in all that you are, all of you that were mine all for the taking. I thank you I cherish you I adore your mind in any state of distress I honor you.

I never found such blessings in this lifetime ever again.
I have lost my children relationship  my only treasures, assimilated by my deadly enemies.
and their hate crimes isolated me from  my grandkids too.

"i always think of you as someone very dear and precious."

So beleted Marry Christmases and Belated Happy birthdays dearest darling. How i love you.
Infinite love,
All the days if my life
I am worshipping you.
likewise, I worship my belived children..
---
By Karijinbba
home less without you 50 years.

He's unsure and can't

do magic, yet he can do --


magical thinking.

If the stars stopped shining,
The night would be like the deep sea.
Dark and cold.

If the stars stopped shining,
The light from the sailor’s lanterns,
Would reflect off the sea,
Like sunset on the Antarctic ice.

And the shipmen and their saxtons,
Could not find their way back home.
And there would be a little boy in the window,
Every night.

Waiting for his father to return.
There would be a woman at the widow’s peak.
Waiting for her husband to come home.

If the stars stopped shining,
Would lovers still love each other?
Because if the stars stopped shining, I don’t know if I would still see you.
In that certain way I’ve grown to love.

If I knew how,
I'd write music to go along with the words in my poems,
And I turn my poems into songs.

Thy evening candle’s flicker glows like stars at night
Through gentle breezes borne by evening’s smoke
Debris left by day’s fierce returning flare
Best known in twilight’s tending, hidden care
From dawn to dusk the candle endures,
Once belonged to the man who’d take walks by the shores
For his imprint on the earth is forever spoke
By the chirps of the birds and melted wax on the floors
Of mother earth’s grassy plains
And in the memories of those who by his passing have been torn
Though unspoken wishes remain,
Once let by his tongue, in the rain he adored.
Clinging desperately onto the wind that carries
Until his words are lost in thy golden flame,
And his speech gone in dust by it’s own accord.