It is snowing.
Please thaw my house. Please
thaw my
Heart.

It's raining today
So cold and wet
I wish that I wasn't
So upset. It's raining
today. The more
that I see. I wish you
could come. And make
things sunny.

You don't go to the circus
to see someone be safe
with tigers. You don't go
to my home when you
just broke my heart.

I keep sleeping because
when I sleep I don't
get to think of you.

Today is Christmas and look:
we are all here on the Internet.
Maybe if I had you this Christmas
I wouldn't be here on the Internet.

Please care about me.
I am so lonely. Please,
I care about you. I
don't know what to do.

Blade or fingernail
its all the same.
Midnight strokes
I feel all the pain.

Everyone wants me to get better.
Except for my own body.
My bones want to stay sore.
My brain doesn't want to stop.
My heart doesn't want to heal.

when you
       so dear to me
      do hurt me
a pinpoint *****
is a razor’s slashing edge
       make gashing wounds
       and bleeding drains me
       bound scars to testify
       to the hurt
       the doer do magnify
i flee my brittle tiny shell
and don the mask of mirth
but fleeing never find
a chambered nautilus
which i would exchange for mine
       a twig is bent
       a leaf is fallen
       a grain of sand is lost
       a page is torn
       teardrop falls
       a lost one calls
when trust has grown
when choice is blind
when reason cannot reason
       a little twist
       a careless wink
       an unintended turnabout
              eats up a painful way
              to the heart that loves.