winners and women won’t quit on the person that made them who they are,
who drove the get-away car,
you, me
three days post Martin’s birthday
“darkness cannot drive out darkness;
only light can do that”
raised fist,
raised middle fingers
stained all my white shirts,
burned all my flags
surrender is not an option,
honesty guiding me,
carved my name everywhere i’ve been,
everywhere i will go

Sometimes I wonder why I came to decide
To end my life with suicide
But this idea should be set aside
For life is worthwhile with the Lord as my guide

All my fears and my despair
I thought they were beyond compare
But when I turned to face defeat
My Lord was there to save and all was in peace

I always doubt why He picked me
Resentfully sinned and troubled with anxiety
But when I’m praying on my knees
His unconditional love is all I can see

My soul was broken, my heart has been bound
My mind was ripped and my hope is nowhere to be found
I lost my everything, this is the end
Wait, have you forgotten?

You still have the Lord,
your Father and your Friend

When i'm not okay
I hate myself
When i am down
I hate myself
When i have failed
I hate myself
When i can't be what i want to be
I hate myself
When i have so much problems stuck in mind
I hate myself
When i can't shine like everyone
I hate myself
When i hate myself
I hate myself

Nothing's special in me
I can't be like those girls
I can't be like another people
I can't struggle with creative mind
I can't survive the hardest time
I can't solve problems with smartest way
I can't reach the top
I just can see everyone's standing on top
I can't be like this
I can't be like that
And i can't be myself

I waiver in and out of
using God in my favour
I wanna pass these English papers ya see
Become a journalist go overseas

I’ve got it all planned out
Cause that’s the way
it makes sense
It’s a truth I can focus my lense
And I’m asking god to help me

To bless me in my ways,
But it’s been days since I’ve been
stuck in this grey haze
Not really sure if it’s
a passing phase

Cause I have favour when I walk
the way of my saviour
I literally can do anything my heart does desire
He gives me the fire
But

When it’s me tryna distinguish the plan
Cause I’m impatient and I can’t understand

It’s like
“Yo gimme the map” ,
eventhough I’m a
blind man and I’m walking right offa track

He makes your ways straight
He has the perfect plan but
you must wait
And don’t be afraid of passing times,
Or rising crimes
Or pressure that seems to suffocate

And surround you
God will confound you,
Yes he will astound you,
Just let your worries melt
Away

Trust in the lord ,
His word is a sword
Not in

The words of man that will lead you astray
You may have a past but the lord has today
And he’ll be sure to make a way.