No one deserves this type of life,
Yet here I am living in strife.
No where to go,
So I'm going with the flow.

I'm stuck
Please give me a little luck
Pull me out in this place
So I can never see you face

I'm tired of all the lies
Now I open my eyes
I don't wanna fight
But I want rights


All this voices
Became noices
I am ready to shout
Please hear me out

Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck inside myself, only writing and feeling things about myself when the world is so big. But the eyes I have are mine, my brain and its synapses, my tongue and my lungs, my fingers and movements, these are also mine. Therefore, it's hard to see something other than what my eyes can see, or feel and wonder about things my mind can't reach. But even if I could, my lungs breathe for me and my mouth is a slave.
I can not escape myself, because I am human. And after everything, it means to be a prisoner.

Nothing new, nothing good wherever i look
How many days i have to count?
How many years i have to wait?
To finally say "Yes! I did it!"

Nobody knows why I'm still here
I feel stuck but i need to move
Would my future self thank me if do everything to improve?

overwhelming desires
past expiration
she doesn't know what closure requires
to keep or not to keep correlation

Lately, I’ve been coming to crossroads mentally and spiritually
To either go %110 and give my all and be open and flexible on all aspects and wear my heart on my sleeve. To be completely open to being loving
Or
To still give that 110% but direct it more towards myself rather than my relations, to block myself off from certain things and keep my mental focused on myself and my goals.
To keep that energy internal so myself only can prosper from the energy and not a single other person.


To spilt my energy more so into an array of aspects including myself, or to focus it only on myself shielding and blocking all outside energies.