To Remember At all Times

You wake up vague, objectives dormant.
Focused on the now-ment,
In the habit of the moment,
Higher power to relate to,
Husband, friend or wife beside you,
You seek thought, goal, frame to fit in -
Any measure to begin
A day serene
With something like a slogan:
“Everything that happens, happens for my best”
Whether lesson or reward: a grace,
A gift with not a price tag.
Always in the air
In lives particular and singular,
You aim the morning self that was,
And turn it into self that is,
Its comforts and rewards.

To Remember At All Times 7.25.2016
Circling Round Reality; The Processes: Creative, Thinking,  Meditative II;
Arlene Corwin

I see you, you're there
But do you see me?
Probably not 'cause you're everywhere
All you see is yourself
You don't even care
Self is your first priority
It's no longer fair
Why do I even stay
You can't even offer me a chair
Just say something
Maybe compliment my hair
It's so painful
I don't even dare
Dare to say what happened
What happened to the love we used to share

Good to start something,
with good word;
Best option for a good word is 'Good',
starting my poem of thought with,
a good word!
a Good **Start

Wiping Out A Planet

Will it be called a plan-out
Or continue as a planet?
The question
Mass extinction:
Holocausts that came about
Five times before, long, long ago.
We know when where and how
And still we don’t believe it’s happening now,
Right now.
The cause not asteroid, volcano, no!
The cause ambition, greed and wars;
In other words:
Expansion and the chain that follows:
Degradation moral, ethical most subtle -  
For all causes have effects long term.
I squirm
At the prognosis.

Wiping Out A Planet 7.11.2016
Our Times, Our Culture II; Circling Round Nature II;
Arlene Corwin

I get all overwhelmed when there's too many people.
There's too many feelings, too many thoughts,
That I wish I could feel, I wish I could read.

Too much voices, forcing their way in my eardrums,
demanding me to listen.

This is why I hate crowds,
This is why I value solitude.

My heart can never contain too much of things,
It just doesn't know what to do with it.

My palms, aren't wide enough for something too monstrous.
My lungs aren't big enough for your tornado,
instead of filling me, you're actually suffocating me.

I'm not asking for everything,
But at least, give me **something.

I cried when they said,
You are carrying something special.
Inside you is something,
Someone, who'll be someone's
Best thing that's ever happened to them.

But I am crying,
looking at you like lost potential,
looking at you like a pathetic failure
looking at you like broken futures
like a bunch of black holes, instead of dazzling supernovas

I am crying,
shouting at the world,
thinking that this is sin, since it's not
the right timing.
You promised me a future,
of success, of diplomas,
of infinite careers,
but then they said you are,
carrying something special.

I cried,
I thought it was for your mom, for your dad,
for you little brother who looks up to you.
But then I realized that it was for myself.

I am a selfish *****, I knew that.
But it never felt more real,
than the time the first drop of tears crawled into my cheek,
then unto my neck, and slowly disappeared into my chest.

Dear, you're not
Lost Potential
A Pathetic Failure
Broken Futures
A bunch of Black Holes

You are a Dazzling Supernova.
And inside you,
is a surprise, but not something to hold you back,
I'm sorry if I made it feel
Unwelcome-d

I'm sorry if I made it feel unloved,
unwanted.

Something's missing
And I don't know what it is
Something's missing
Can you tell me?
Is it -

Happiness (Balance)
Sanity (Security)
Something to find worth in me
Love (Somebody)
Life (Help Me Please)
I need to find worth in me

INT. WILL'S HOUSE - NIGHT

Andrew walked inside of his best friend Will's house, carrying a six pack of Stella, and moved to the beer-pong table, where Lauren and Erica were playing with Daniel and Marcus. The girls turned to face Andrew and Erica mumbled something to Lauren. Lauren laughed and nodded. Andrew hoped she wasn't laughing at him, but when he saw her smiling at him, that was when he knew he would end up falling in love with her. Well maybe not in love with her, but he hoped he would at least get to know her. He took off his jacket and set it aside on the couch next to Will and Carrie. Will looked slimmer than usual, his arms skinny, and his clothes baggy on him. He didn't like seeing his friend look like a stick-figure, but he didn't really know how to approach the subject. Instead, he hugged him and felt Will's skin and bones, wondering how long could his friend go on like this.

ANDREW
Will, wanna get next game?

Will considered it for a moment and shook his head.

WILL
I would man, but I'm feeling pretty tired. Going to take a dab in a minute, you want one?

ANDREW
Ha, not tonight man, I got to drive back home after this.

Andrew turned around and caught Lauren staring at him. She looked away and shot the ping-pong ball into one of the red solo cups. All Andrew knew about Lauren was that she moved here from Florida. She was here for the summer, perhaps longer. She was good friends with Will's girlfriend Carrie, but Carrie had told him the other day over Facebook chat, that Lauren was talking to some guy named Peter back in Florida. Good for me, he thought. He wanted to be single for a while, but there was something uncanny about Lauren that drew him in closer to the pong table. She was wearing a black cardigan and a white blouse underneath with jean shorts and flats--typical NOVA ****, but he sensed she was deeper than her appearance. She had blue eyes, blue as the sky in the current summer month of July.

ANDREW
Hey do you guys mind if I get next game?

Erica looked at Lauren. And she looked back at Erica and shrugged.

LAUREN
Are you good?

ANDREW
I can be.

Lauren considered him for a moment.

LAUREN
Great to hear. You and Erica are going to go against me and Daniel. Cool?

ANDREW
Yeah that's cool.

Andrew found a spot next to Erica and stood beside her, high-fiving her.

ERICA
Don't worry about Lauren, she's just super competitive.

ANDREW
Let's show them some competition then.