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empty seas Apr 2018
I have a dark, slithering thing
it lives in me
curled up in the cavity
just above my stomach
it only awakes
to eat and destroy
feasting on my emotions
and destroying my self-confidence
as my other emotions are slowly dying
to where I cannot feel them anymore
the dark, slithering beast
gives me one emotion
it is the only emotion
envy
I turn jealous and hateful
unable to smile with the beast showing me
how everyone is so much better
it hisses to me:
your best friend is funnier and nicer
your girlfriend more talented and pretty
they will turn away eventually
for you have no good qualities

I can’t bear to hurt anyone
so I turn to isolation
the great, slithering beast turns on me
and from the inside out
tears me to shreds
Everyone I love is so much better than me, and I dread the day they realize I’m nothing compared to them, and finally leave me
Jay Apr 2018
Have you ever seen someone so crumbled,
That it seems they are dying?
Someone so hurt,
And so full of distaste for themselves that they tried to end?
I have.
I have been one,
And I have met a million.
And there is ONE thing I have realized about all of these people.
Not one of them is weak.
Not a single one.
Most of these shattered souls have held together through a million beatings,
Physical or verbal.
All of these beings who fold in upon themselves,
Trying to hide,
Are the most beautiful humans to ever exist.
Each of these souls with an ache for an end,
Are talented, and skilled in ways that most would not think.
Every bruised heart has loved a trillion,
But are now afraid to have someone cruel reach in,
And rip their love out.
Every single one of these people are perfect,
Worthy beings.
Every single soul like this,
Deserves to wail,
And cry.
Each one has every right to scream,
And howl,
Until their lungs are weak.
All of them deserve the most perfect love,
And they each deserve respect.
To most,
Each of these souls are weak.
But they are not.
They are trees whose limbs have been scorched,
But are still breathing,
And are still dreaming,
Even if they believe that they do not deserve a single good thing.
They have leaves sprouting at their bases,
Flowers blooming from their roots.
They may seem powerless to some,
Even themselves,
But they are wise,
Powerful souls,
With a thousand rings in their tree trunks,
Who will NEVER be uprooted.
empty seas Apr 2018
i think i've always had an urge
to rip myself to pieces
to value myself less than others
and although it's unhealthy
i don't think i hate it
i let my mind destroy myself
because i definitely deserve it
and as long as others don't get hurt
i don't care what happens
i've always been taught to not be selfish, so i became selfless to a fault
Eleanor Apr 2018
When will I learn to love myself?
Do I have to decide to start loving myself?

Because if that is true it means that,
The only thing stopping my happiness, is me.

Do I not want to love myself?
Do I love hating myself?

I think maybe I do love hating myself.
Or maybe I'm afraid of loving myself.
For reasons that I cannot fathom.

A quote from Confucius:
Respect yourself,
and others will respect you.

Maybe that is an ancient version of today's
No one will love you,
until you love yourself.

So when will I learn to love myself?
When I stop being afraid of it.
Jillian Jade Apr 2018
We walk through this world
With all different eyes.
But the way I saw yours
The way they touched mine.
The way I lost myself
The way you'd always help
The way I couldn't tell
What this feeling was.

The way your fingers touched my hair.
The way you mended my heart's tears.
The way my heart fluttered at your smile.
The way the butterflies always flew miles.
The way you touched my skin.
The way I felt your laughs.
The way you held me.
You had my heart in your hands.
Why did you drop it?

The way I felt that hurt
The gut wrenching pain
The cries everyone heard
No one said anything.
They all just stared.
Pity in their eyes.
And watched the way
Your heart crushed mine.

From being so high
And ending so low
How I didn't know
The pain you had bestowed,
Upon me like a spell
Stuck in this cycle.
Never ending tears
Down a waterfall of miles.  
The way you caressed me.
The way you kissed me.
It should have been obvious.
My heart so naive,
Left in so much pain.

The way you faked everything.

The Way
You touched me gently
Leaving traces on my skin
I didn't know
You were writing in permanent marker.
Now I can't erase
The markings you've left
Within.

-Memories etched in with a blade.

Jillian Jade
Rebecka Apr 2018
You never stop thinking
That´s why the pain never goes away
Rebecka Apr 2018
If you could just accept my body
like i accept yours
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