Buzzing, itching, crowded mess.

Pounding, pounding, in my head.

Nothing matters, not anymore.

It never did, never at all.

Slowly sinking, drowning, cold.

I think I'm starting to lose my hold.

My grip on reality is wearing thin.

It's time I let the demons in.

I'm hearing voices
I'm loosing my mind
And just like a mad man
I've got no place to hide

You crave those moments that take your breath away

I crave those moments that let me breath

You fear the imaginable dreadful end
I fear the true and spectacular now

Pulse accelerating  
Eye's dilating

I dance to the rhythm of my hearts tambourine

It beats often
I move often
I fall often
I rise often

Soft thoughts
Melting down my face
I'm a disgrace
Head filled with
Haze as fine as lace
Where is this place?
On long nights I trace
Your two lonely eyes
And quivering lips, me
Hello, me, I am you
You trace my quivering eyes
And lonely lips
On long dark evenings
Where blankets trap you
To the asylum of your midnight room
Black so thoughts light up,
My soft thoughts running

   down

She was unstoppable and she cannot prevent herself
from leaking the chemicals that are flowing in her veins,
chemicals so poisonous that she starts to wonder
if she had lost her entire view on making every point
she desires to reveal, had she succumbed to the madness
that is slowly eating her brains leading to more madness
and nothing but madness. Or had she somehow kept her sanity,
leaving only decent thoughts along her trail
so they could not track her and her tainted soul.
But in her murky haze, she could only think about how it is so inviting to cut her flesh open so she could let her blood spill into the ground and give birth to more madness, madness and madness.
She could no longer tell.

at night the pills hit me
like the wreck of train.

I smile, I recall your face
high as hell, but I remember your name.

I replay your sweet voice,
in my chaotic brain.

love is life for me,
but for you it's just a game.

no, it's not healthy
but it's keeping me sane.

Drinks at day,
pills at night.

it's all that gives me peace,
with them I don't have to fight.

Darkness
consuming my sanity,
leaving a crack in the soul
for
demons to gain access
to the
inner world !!