You overtook,
You overlooked,
You swore,
You bore,
Left both of our hearts sore.

At first when you had lost me,
You swore you’d never let go again.
If you’d just have one more chance,
You swore you’d never let go again.

I gave you that chance.
I gave you my heart.
You threw it away.
The fault is yours, at the end of the day.

I supported you.
I gave you my all.
I gave my love to you.
You watched me fall.

You stood back,
Barely said a word.
Watching me as I ached,
Shunning me as I burned.

Yet still at the end of the day,
You claimed to love me.
And at the end of the day,
That was enough for me.

Singing,
Screaming,
Loving,
Pleading.
Like a song, my heart was beating.

My feelings for you,
Palpable and overwhelming,
Venomous and Bittersweet,
I picked my poison.

You made me wish
For more than you could give.
You made me wish
For what you’d once been.

I’m running low on supply. My system is weakening, I can no longer be of service.

It’s an emergency!! I need to treat myself and return equipped for a better appointment.
I’m shutting down. I’m running out of time and will power.

It’s an emergency! Is there anyone who can help me regain strength? For this appointment is exhausting.
I’m looking for a durable support system that would never run dry. This one is squeezing the life out of me. This one is rendering me “dripless”

It’s an e-m-e-r-g...

How could you say these lies
When you know I anticipate these times with you.
To watch you walk away
Your warmth instantly leaving my hands.
How could you say these lies
Knowing that your not coming back.
My hands with nothing left to grab.
Watching you walk away.
Those jeans
The way you sway.
My hands ache with nothing left to grab on to.
The warmth hidden behind those jeans.
How could you say these lies
Knowing that I am waiting.
Anticipating this time spent with you.
The way my hands grip you.
Each moment slipping through my fingers.
Not knowing you didn't plan on coming back.
Your sway imprinted on my hands.
This walk a reminder of how I waited.
Anticipating this time spent with you.
How could you say these lies.
My hands filled with brown skin.
Squeezed tight
Cuffed beneath the bottom of your jeans.
Finally realizing you never planned on coming back.
Your sway
Those jeans.
Your warmth forever leaving my hands.
& here I am
Still anticipating this time,
Spent with you

Picking up my favorite pen
words I couldn't have the guts to say
Here I am again making continuous lines
Preten hadthese rhymes will give you sign.
You see it's so funny to me
How we've known each other for so long
Yet I still don't have the courage
to let go of it and make confessions.
Maybe I can but I hate to be awkward
So I guess that's how I  missed every single chance
or maybe I value what we have in present
more than the unknown result of regrets.

Suddenly, under the dazzling sky;
I think of you.
Trees swaying, birds chirping;
Time slows, heart beats fast;
T'was the feeling before;
As I remember;
Now, trees aren't swaying, birds seem so sad to sing;
Time runs too fast, my heart's not in rhythm;
The sky lost its dazzle.

These wilted flowers that sit on my desk,
Foretold the future I was whispered of, in my head,
Once vibrant blossoms,
Now dull, devastatingly dreary,
Mimic the coldness I feel now,
That you’re no longer near me.
The candles flicker around me,
So fickle, oh so faint,
I’ll dread the moment they go out,
For then darkness will take their place.
I hear the thunder all around me,
A vicious reminder of our once booming love,
Fading off in the distance,
Then only leaving the rain and I to sob,
And I know you didn’t think I noticed when you stuttered on “goodbye”
Because the tears they welled up, and glazed over my eyes.
But I saw the crack in your demeanor, when I begged you not to go.
I really thought you meant it,
When you told me you loved me so..