Endless field of tulips,
Many out of my reach.
The one that withered was more than 30 kilometres away,
Yet the sadness of the farmers I do not know was felt in such a way.
It was a beautiful day,
Tulips sparkled in the sun rays.
Yet it felt like it was pouring,
And the silence was roaring.
It wasn't my tulip to know,
But when it withered I felt the cold.
It's a perfect day with no snow,
but the day has lost its glow.
A withered tulip in a distance,
And I felt its fleeting existence.

I remember feeling in control and equal
I remember being daft about it in the movie theatre
Reckless and careless kneeling on ***** movie theatre floors without teeth
You exclaiming and explaining when ever I would use to much teeth
I don’t do that anymore
Mostly because of lockdown but because it is a different world today
There is civil unrest
the force has changed
There is civil unrest
The president has changed
We are no longer together and my mom is privy to me being reckless and in love
She did not wish to know the specific details
But she heard them all the same
I lied I did swallow
And I instantly regretted the taste in my mouth
We never made love and we never got married
In fact teachers made our love get buried.
It was a great relationship to start out
Now you know what my love was about.

Colours of wine
course through my veins,


gérer ça chérie!
Je ne regrette rien.

Today, I woke up with regrets,
but no, don’t get me wrong.
I never regret meeting you,
a hectic mid-afternoon at the field.
I never regret the days we spent,
your arms held us close.
I never regret holding your hand,
fingers intertwined at all.
I never regret the intimacy,
your touch leaves marks.
I never regret it, no.
But I do regret
holding on to chances, I thought I got something to look forward to.
I regret being certain, I assumed
this entire book could be written.
I regret giving myself
but has only left me torn asunder.
I regret letting this happen,
I should have been wiser.
I regret not holding enough.
I regret not doing enough.
I regret not being enough.
Today, I woke up with regrets,
but no, I’m not blaming you.
After all, there’s no one to blame to but my expectations.
You did nothing wrong, baby
It’s my fault,
I broke my own heart.

Why do I feel so alone?
Why do I keep pushing away people?
I feel like I'm in an ocean drowning on my own
I feel like everything's going to crumble

Probably its my own fault
for building an iron wall encasing my soul
Is it dumb of me to think
That someone will destroy it in a blink

I realized it too late
I realized it too slow
now I feel alone because of my mistake
I feel like there's nowhere left for me to go