Then again, what do you expect from a shaking ground?
Peace is obliviously out of question.
It left me with ruins and wound
And an empty confession

Thank you
Thank you for the memories
I will carry them with me
Thank you for showing me that things aren't always meant to be
Thank you for not being honest with me
Now I know I cant just trust anybody
Thank you for making me feel like I wasn't enough
For I saw how much I have to give and it was you who wasn't doing too much
Thank you for the sleepless nights
It made me realize that things weren't right
Last but not least, thank you for being you
Because I learned that I am way better off with you

There was me
Then there was you
You didnt deserve me
And I knew
But I protected myself from the truth
I let my mind form a different image of you
To continue this feeling, this connection I never thought I would get
But little did I know   
Even though you felt like home
You also had demons of your own
Now with yours and mine,
I'm forced to fight
Just because I failed to see that timing was never right

i once believed in my lifetime
that life is guaranteed with security
people tell me constantly
that i don’t have to ever worry
“the future’s vivid & bright,
no need to be in a hurry.”

until my wicked thoughts arrived without a warning
and slowly, transformed me into another being.
these thoughts lived a little too long inside me
before i even knew it, i then believed in them so badly.
doubt and questions clouded the once well-assured me
as i tried to live the illusion of my monstrosity.

will my mind ever taste the feeling of being free?

the answer came in a form of my identity’s inevitability:
that my mind’s only playing cruel tricks constantly;
the wickedness that i so preciously keep next to me
has never been the way i am supposed to be.
this revelation about the real me never came easy
but it has finally set my mind and heart free