i command my thought queen
to keep her revolting peasants in order
until i remember
she’s a queen of the people

Overthink
I always overthink
My thoughts like permanent ink
One thought
Next to another
All my little rambles
And my annoying little stutters

Thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking.
Who’d have thought?
My thinking is against me.
It’s pulling at my arms as I try to run.

Stuckstuckstuckstuck
Stuck in the pattern
Emotional quicksand
Dragging me back under
Over and over and over and over and over

I can never escape
  Never escape
The loop

I SCREAMED TO GOD FOR HELP

each time I gasp for air and get dragged back under

I don’t even know if I’m making progress

God give me a sign that I’m making progress

Don't lie to an overthinker
You don't know how it kills
To lay in bet at night
And think about those things
I thought you told the truth
But things just don't add up
And what am I to do
When this is so messed up
I lay here till the sunrise
I went to bed at nine
It's been like seven hours
And you're still on my mind
I overthink these things
I know that it's not good
But I am not the one who made
Those thoughts become my truth
So do not lie to an overthinker
You won't help them survive
Truth hurts and that's a fact
But lies will only lead to die

I am a dreamer
I wonder how many stars are left alive
I hear their distant echoes
I see their twinkling lights
I want them to never fade
I am a dreamer

I pretend that they're still there
I feel their empty void
I reach up to the bright black sky
I forebode the encroaching sombre
I dirge the infinite requiem
I am a dreamer

I perceive through blind eyes all comprehension
I whisper through sealed lips a thousand voices
I dream for a silence
I strain to stay awake
I desire nights with no dreams
I am a dreamer

The expectations in my head
overgrown and make a mess
the idea it has been spread
to let go gives me distress
why do I set the bar so high
to myself I tell this big lie
reality can not compete
it leaves me feeling bittersweet

Overthinking does more harm than good
so i have quit thinking about you
and will keep the thoughts
and memories at bay
because
whatever happens
will happen
Anyway
yet here I am:
watching my efforts
going down the drain
by thinking this over, and over again...