She bought her tiger lilies rather than roses
She wrote her poetry instead of letters.
She left kisses where she hid her past.
She saw her for her soul not her body.

which is nicer,
love.
to be sober with them long bumpless road
for decades worth a thousand solar eclipses.
or ,
to be drunk with your thirsty blood
for seconds worth a thousand teardrops.

9/16/16

To talk to at 12:30 am when my heart is wide open
To tell about the little things I witness
You always make it about yourself

Seconds streaming down and I am no wiser
Every moment pushes you into the past
Pushes me into myself
Like a time-bomb waiting

Then the wrists won't be held
And the eyes won't reflect
And the hair won't shine
Are you mine

Its late and everyone is lost in imagination
I know I should be fast asleep
But this is when i can show my emotion
Because no can see me being me

I cry because of emptiness inside
I hate this ache in my heart
It makes my throat dry
It makes me feel like something is missing

I say to myself that i dont need no one in my life
But I know i am just talking crap
I just dont want to be fooled by love
But I know that I am just afraid

Truth be told I have never fallen in love
My desire to find that hurts me so much
Because i have false hopes for me
Hopes that will never come true

I fall for people that will never be intrested
I create stories in my head and end up liking the story more than the person
It helps take the pain away for a while
But then i snap back to reality and I am alone again

I wonder how it will be like, to be inlove
Just the thought of it makes me tremble
All the those deep feeling for this one person
The way they can make you glow up when he's with you

But what happens when the fustration and pain kick in
The way they'll make you so angry at times
Or when they wont tell you everything
What about all of those problems

I see my friends in love and do stupid desicion
I find them just so idiotic
I am just dont understand  how this one person can make everything better by saying i love you
Or how the can make you cry all night

So for my future first love
I hope for the best for you and me
And that you love me back
Because thats what i fear most in you

Rain rain go away,
Interal chatter please don't stay
Ruining my chances of having a decent day
Chatter chatter chatter
Fogs my thoughts
You're words have no meaning,
No one cares about what you have to say,
Wondering if your hairs okay
Negative thoughts racing,
Chest tightening up,
Heart beat pounding,
Little air received,
When your mind affects you physically,
It's hard to breathe,
Hard to eat ,
Friends?
a distance memory,
for everyday,
this chatter plays
ruining my chances of something interesting to say
This life is such a pain,
Drifting away,
Reality,
Once felt many years ago
The present
A numb dreamy world

Dullness; when apart
Meeting; feelings spark,
Bliss felt; childhood summers,
The closet metaphor to the feelings that flutter when we're with one another
Thousands of sunrises and sunsets through which I've roamed;
No soul could ever fulfill your role

I maybe need solitude,
Because when I'm alone,
I'm detached from obligations
I don’t need to put on a show,
I can hear my own thoughts
And feel what's my intuition is telling me.

But the truth is,
Throughout my life there will be times
When the world gets real quiet
And the only thing left is the beat of my own heart
So I’d better learn the sound of it,
Otherwise I can never understand what it’s telling me.

There is so much out there to experience and I want to do before its too late.

Before we met, my heart was shattered
I had all the pieces scattered, some were even missing

You came like a wrecking ball, funny enough; you didn't finish me off, but instead you added new value, gave me hope

I couldn't believe what was before my eyes, but you reassured me when we exchanged souls; ****** *******

We complimented each other, poetry was our favorite thing, I wrote all my madly in love thoughts on your back, and let you strip for me; so amazing

By: yours truly

My feelings disappeared
Melted away
With all of you
All there is left of me
Is empty thoughts
Unsponken words
And dry tears
... ******

1 AM, I sit here

Slice myself open, rip my heart out, and let raw feelings bleed out on to a piece of paper

1 AM, you lay there

Inhaling another, exhaling love, intertwining souls.

2 AM, you’re closing your eyes

Good night, I love you- you whisper, as you kiss her on the cheek, and roll over for the night.

2 AM, I’m closing mine

I never understood how vacant could be an emotion until tonight. Good night, I love you- I whisper, as I close my eyes, and feel my soul slip away.