Remember, the days you pour out your heart Remember, when they shut your mouth They say you're overthinking Yes, we all know All I know now is to write poems Tired of making them to listen Tired of dragging them as only I can see The mess I created, I just want to express So my thoughts I hide, in words I write I know I'm not alone I'm just an ordinary human There are days it hits And we will all heal Overthinking? Oh sweet darling Tell me about it
Your life's a mess My life's a mess Your love's a mess My love's... I don't know Maybe I don't have it Do I not Do I feel it Do I know how it feels No I don't I don't know how it feels Do you You do But you don't feel it now
My mind is racing in circles again. It will go on and on and on. Every minute. Ever hour. Every single ******* day. It feels like pain is the only way to break the circle. Cause for a moment I will feel something. For a moment I will feel whole…fine. But only for a moment. Then all I feel is shame. All I feel is the overwhelming fear of people finding out. But I'm so tired of hiding all the time. Tired of hiding the truth. Tired of pretending to be fine. Someone is controlling my brain. Someone is placing these horrifying thoughts and images in my mind. What's wrong with me. What am I doing? It feels like I'm trapped. Trapped in this mess. My mess. I made it. I gave it fuel. But it's so exhausting waking up to the same numbness… the same pain every day. My hero where are you? I think I need saving.
Have you ever go through a night where everything feel so **** even Know everything is going fine. Where you feel so broken inside and just want to scream it out loud yet you can’t. Each tears that drop from your eyes is a pure pain from inside of you where you been holding it in. Right now I feel so useless and pointless I feel like I can never be good enough for anyone. I feel like I don’t belong to this world. My head spinning like my world is going to end. My heart is shaking like is going to stop beating anytime soon, my brain is hurting like thousands of people trying to step on it. I have always been positive with life yet still I have my down moment where I feel like no one could ever understand me. Maybe it’s just my loneliness feelings where I feel like I need a tight hug and someone to tell me everything going to be ok. I feel like no one actually care about my feelings people always come in and take benefits of me. I always wonder what if feel like to be love by the right one. I don’t think I ever been loved by anyone people just come in and go never stay no matter how hard I try to save them. Maybe because they think I’m too soft they can just do whatever they want to me and I will forgive them. My smile always hide my feelings I wonder what is like when someone look at me into my eyes and say I know your not ok and hug me tight.
a mess of words, hopelessly lost I’m sorry that we never got to fall in love. I’d give you my heart but someone else stole it first and broke it like a stone to a stained glass window- I’m sorry that we never got to fall in love
