You are a series of red flashing fabrics and I am a Matador thrusting myself into you over and over and over again

I know it is nothing but pain and embarrassment and yet it’s so natural to me to proceed with these actions

You are a red flag I can spot from a mile away glistening your sequins in my face and I cannot stop but ram my face into yours

I know you bring me no satisfaction and I know I will never win against you in these battles and yet it’s so natural for me to hurt myself for you

A well-groomed matador José
Liked to moisturize with Oil of Olay
His hands lost their grip
The cape it did slip
He was gored as he cried out "¡Olé!"

Ma maîtresse, mon esclave, ma sans-rivale
Mon bienheureuse et peureuse idole
Mon biscuit, mon aphrodisiaque
Je chante aujourd'hui pour toi l'hybride
Le tout-monde, le divers
Je sais que tu trembles
A ce seul nom évoqué
Hybride
Mais en même temps il t'attire et te bouleverse
Il t'attise, il te brûle, il te prend, il te chavire
Il est multiple céramique polychrome
Il est faïence, il est glaise
Il est ombre, il t'assombre
Il est tout et toute et son contraire:
Il est pudique
De porcelaine et majolique impudique
Sublimé par l'émail, l'or et le zinc de tes fantasmes.
L'hybride idole te gouverne
Comme les astres et les lignes de ta main
Il t'oblige !
Hybride oblige !
Tu es chat et Ganesha
Eléphante et hippocampe,
Opaque et translucide
Exempte de toute déchirure,
Gerçure et boursouflure
Parfaite et vicieusement fatale
Blanche et noire et bleue
Musicale et cacophonique
Genghis Khan et Décébale
Tu es relecture antique et moderne
Mystique réincarnation des idoles
Mythiques
Et le masque de sourires malicieux que tu t'es approprié
Est un tableau vivant des hybridoles
Mi dragon mi ange
Mi vamp mi vampire
Qui tournoient en ton sang
Qui nagent dans tes eaux
Et te pourlèchent les lèvres de leur semence érotique.
Tu es Napoléon et Francesca de Rimini
Revus et corrigés par le lit de Jocuste,
Centaure aux vulve et verge mêlées
Livrant au Divin Matador
Queue et oreilles.
Forêt vierge jamais pénétrée
Dans son Saint des Saints
Par la verve de l'oeil du cyclone de Pharaon.

An uncompassionate crowd of 20,000
are tensely sitting in a stadium
bloodthirstily waiting for a cruel spectacle
they call a ‘bulllfight’
which is actually a ‘bull-harass-and-****’.
This brutal bloodsport
is celebrated as a national artform
in Spain
so the matadors (bullfighters) strut around proudly
in their suits of golden thread
to loud cheers and excited applause.

The bull, frightened suffering,
is harassed and killed in three stages:

The first stage is called ‘tercio de varas’
‘the lancing third’
when armoured-horse mounted lancers
use a long sharp lance
to spear the bull behind his shoulder muscles
to weaken the bull’s neck muscles
and begin the bull’s loss of blood;

The second stage is called ‘tercio de banderillas’
‘the third of banderillas’
when the matador attacks the bleeding-weakening bull
with banderillas (sharp barbed sticks)
stabbing the banderillas above the shoulder blades of the bull
to anger and agitate
the frightened bull fighting for his life.

The third stage is called ‘tercio de muerte’
‘the third of death’
when the matador baits the bull
with a red cape
then stabs the bull with a steel sword
aiming for his heart
but often missing
leaving the bull suffering multiple stab-wounds
bleeding, slowly miserably dying.

I wonder
when will this barbaric bull-harass-and-****
be banned in all nations?

A muleta drapes over my chest
the ripples pass through with the wind
while we dance around this dusty plaza de toros
eyes fixated
thinking you can gore mon coeur
ptui
I only give you the illusion of control
but in the end
it will be my estoc tongue that
pierces your flesh
between the shoulders
with crimson words
I am no novillero
cornada's in the past only strengthen the future
a porta gayola posed and ready
awaiting that ferocious charge

The devil sits at its zenith
Hell’s warmth embracing
a bead of sweat escapes
both the man and the beast
locked and circling
waiting
waiting
waiting
until one leaves alive
both man and beast
want to show their bravado
one charges
one waves and dodges
both smell death’s breath
a crimson river starts to flow
and the dance is repeated
until one sits on Charon's boat
or is pulled by death’s horses
but in this dance
both have tripped and fallen
death is overjoyed in the afternoon

I understand they find dinosaur bones there in your backyard. Big ones. I've never been to your house or even close to that neighborhood, but ever since you've written me, I am completely intrigued. What you said about me, I think about you in an execrable Hemingway way, maybe as in his "Death In The Afternoon." All the goring. Faintheartedness is nothing to be carried by bullfighters or by bone hunters, I suppose. If there were a way of going back to days of nobler more romanticized slaughtering in bullrings, without the controversy, I'd have to say it is more evident in our modern day Jurassic Park flicks where nerdish paleontologists are transformed into  fiendishly handsome toreadors.

I know I'm not making much sense. Bullfights and dinosaur rustling, what's to compare? One being non-civilized though colorful and bathetic, the other fantastical but forgivable because the beasts bite back. Oh, if only I could explain these machismo machinations. What a ruse. How song and dance does intrigue. Please write me again from South Dakota. I'd like to book one of those dusty dinosaur tours before I go extinct.  Bone hunts, bullfights, same difference.