When you can't sleep,
Late night thoughts creep up
And tug at your sheets

As wave upon wave of
Sleepless anxiety

Shifts your bones,
Crawls under your skin.
Like a nagging itch
You can't explain.

You ponder truth and meaning,
Fears and doubts.
Your brain is awake
But your mind is tired.

You feel nothing,
Yet everything bothers you.

And slowly...
Staring back at you
Are the decisions
You've yet to make.

But you close your eyes
And tell yourself,
"I'll let you be tomorrow's mistake."

everyday at 1:56 am an image of your face flashes in my mind
the smile that made the worst situations instantly better
the eyes that were so easy to get lost into
I remember at 1:56 am you whispered "I love you"
and I had no choice but to believe every word you breathed out into the cold evening
every day at 1:56 am the image of your face is enough to make my whole body ache
because I miss the way you used to hold me and tell me I was the brightest star in the entire galaxy
I miss the way you drew constellations in my mind and made me believe ours was the biggest
I miss the way you laced your love around me and made me feel safe in your arms
when 1:56 am is flashed across the face of a clock
all i can think of is the way your hands caressed my body as if I was the most fragile piece of China in the set
The way you looked at me as if I was the most important chapter in the whole book
the way you exhaled my name as if it was crucial to enunciate every syllable correctly
at 1:56 am everyday I remember the way you loved me and my heart breaks because I've realized even the biggest constellations have to fall apart eventually