I can’t shake off these emotions, this feeling of unwanted affection towards you, a person who makes me smile when there’s no reason to smile, makes me laugh at things I never knew was humorous.
I can’t still seem to shake that off, that replay of heartbreaks going over and over again how I knew you will never feel the same way, yet I still hope, still do. An ongoing war of choosing let it go or not to.
Shake what off? Something pasted and carved in so deep that it can’t be fixed, that whatever I’m feeling for now is shaking me off, off to the world of imaginations where you and I would be in. Though I knew that feeling has already shaken you already and you have stood in a ground where nothing could ever be quivered by anyone.

tell me if a heart would know
what's worth fighting for
and what's not
cause the guilt
can't be taken over
by a sip of black coffee
the curiosity can't be wiped off
even if it's raining heavily
this little empty space
was built for you
brick by brick
hoping it was enough
for you to call it home
and it wasn't only just
up for rent

As my mind spins around
I feel six feet underground
A noose around my throat
A fall in the water wish I brung my coat
A car crash where I die
But to afraid to say goodbye
The feeling of being numb
As I see death come
I turn away
To go with him another day
Then wondering when
As I walk back to where I have been
As my life goes on
I will sit here at dawn
Wishing to fall
Or get a life saving phone call
See I won't die
Or say goodbye
But everyday I get closer to death
Because I'm not scared of taking my last breath

Walking with you was one of the best,
It gives me joy among the rest.
Looking at you makes my heart stop,
Like I was arrested by a cop.

I want the world to see,
What you really mean to me.
For every smile you give,
It gives me strength to hold on.
For every love you contribute,
It gives blissfulness in me.

But for every baneful words you give,
The more I become effete.
What if the time come and you will be gone,
Will I bee seeing myself happy again?
We don't know the flow of the weather,
But I know someday we can walk again together.

You are not speaking
but I’m already listening.
I’ve been shouting out
your name from miles
that the echoes only fill
my mind. I keep chasing
the sprint of your voice
along with this selfish
space that keeps us apart.
If you never cared, never
noticed, never realized,
at least repay all the stares
I have stolen from you.
Feel the glances I’ve bitten
away from you. For these
starving eyes will battle
the pain in its gut until
you feed them with yours.

I cannot be any clearer

I cannot launch myself any harder
in your direction

I cannot spend another night wondering if you are
thinking of me
or her

While I’m over here
   alone
   feeling every lovely feeling for you
   full of beautiful words for you
   wanting you in a way I have never wanted another human being

I have to wonder if you’re even sleeping alone

You and I
Are careening
Through the open air.
Our colors are
Mesmerizing,
Marbled and spinning.

Loving you is
Watching a soap bubble fly.

Our colors swirl.

We're enchanting.

But I can't help it,
I'm holding my breath,
Waiting for that
Inevitable
*pop

We meet in the eyes
I look at you
Assuming that you're looking at me too
People says that you admired me
But they didn't know that I adore you
They said you like me
But they didn't know I'm in love with you
I'm always one or two step ahead
But our status is always unsure
That I found myself in a dilemma
I always heared a thing from them but not from you
Should I pursue my love for you?
Or let it pass just like our gazes..