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I've put some thought upon the end
I've contemplated my demise
I've weighed the impact of my life
And tried to see it through your eyes
What riches, rags, or recompense
Were born of exploits I have sought?
What scars and sleepless night has my
pursuit of such false treasures wrought?
And if the sun should set at last
Upon my final waking hour
And see my eyes find perfect rest
My heart and mind give up their power,
What part of me, if some at all
Would linger here and carry on?
What fraction of my effigy
Will smolder once the frame is gone?
I've put some thought upon the end
But thought better and raised my head
Life is wasted on the living
Who count themselves among the dead.
Depression feels like a lifelong death sentence
How much hurt is too much hurt,
to not get hurt again?
How much hurt is too much hurt,
to let tears run dry?
How much hurt is too much hurt,
for no more left chest pain?
How much hurt is too much hurt,
to never stare at ceiling by nigh't?
How much hurt is too much hurt,
for throat to run dry
How much hurt is too much hurt,
to swallow hard before a word
How much hurt is too much hurt,
to never ever react again
Voices inside my head seem endless
Different faces in each phase
I am trying to save my last breath as if I'm drowning
I tried to free a single word, but nothing escaped.
I am no one, I am nothing
Those were my thoughts as I picked you up at the counter.
Finally, freedom!
Reaching out to no one
i had already died when i chose to stay
please don’t bury me in casket
please don’t bury me
i hate it here
i hate it
i hate
i
i want
i want to
i want to live
please save me
please save me from this madness
i had already died, but i chose to stay
Shane Lease May 22
Am I Relaxing, or am I relapsing?
Who's to say when not even myself knows

But she does
My Ignorance does
All my friends do too

But what makes me keep doing?
What keeps me up at night?
Is my Motivation within my addictions.. or to beat them.
Is it my stress or every past trauma that I give reason.

Nonetheless, I do not know
I Dont have an answer

Do you?
Cheyenne Apr 25
My fingers are screaming
As I beat a rhythm into my desk's surface.
They strike in the same rhythm over and over again,
But you will never understand why.

It is mistaken for a distraction,
Or perceived to be anxiety.
And my classmates scowl and tell me to stop,
No matter how panicked I seem.

It is not a side effect of ADHD,
Or wanting pity.
It is a silent scream of pain
And fear.
It is my cry for help.

...---...
Emilia May 14
I have often found irony in it
When such silly people come to me
And ask me of love
They seek for the knowledge that I have not earned
Nor gotten through experience
And yet I can still provide
They call me a master of that trade
A trade that I have never traveled on
And that I never thought I would travel on

I have often found the irony of it
When I have all of the light in the world
Yet the moment I long to read it is gone
That as soon as I need something
It fleas and runs and hides from me

I have often found the irony of it
That when I am in the presence of someone
and name on there lips is never retired
And when they cannot bear to be away from them
And they know every
And every
And every
Little thing of them
They cannot tell this person how they feel
They cannot express to this name
All of the things that they wish to become
They cannot even speak to them

I have often found the irony of it
But now does it hit me with force
Where I used to be so knowledgeable
All of the information has left me
When I thought I could relay of just that
It is gone in my time of need
And now I can understand the people I once called
Silly and Ironic

For I am in love

Utterly and hopelessly in love
And I am utterly and hopelessly lost
And everything I once knew
Has disappeared

I cannot even fathom the thought of them
So much as go up and talk
Yet everyday I yearn
For some way to explain to them
For some way to make them understand
That every time they smile
I can feel my heart throbbing

But there is no way for me to explain
All of my excellence has faded
All of my brilliance has left
I am stuck with a heart throbbing
And a soul hurting

All I have is a face of irony
And a mind that has betrayed itself
Pouya May 13
Down the river,
Depleting my anger,

Chasing sunset,
With a fixed mindest!

Growing houseplants,
Just like a house pet.

Unleashing my isolation,
With a lot of dissociation
Rain Apr 26
What would have happened if I knocked on their door,
With blood running down my thighs.
Letting them see what I was going through,
Would I have been on the bus the next day.
On the way to school,
Wondering if anyone cared .
Would I be here now,
I know they would have gotten me extreme help.
And maybe I would have gotten that help,
Maybe I wouldn’t be cutting still,
Wondering if anyone cares .
B C Stan Apr 24
Asleep and
quite untouched
A breath soft
But a cloth
My contribution
to the loft
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