Why can’t you look at me

That is all I ask
Not to fix
Not to save

After all my crying
And all my trying

All I ask
Is please look

Are you even listening
When I say
I have tried absolutely everything

Hold me in your heart
Please don’t turn around

Please
Just look

Let no empty promises
Platitude, and platitudes
Like raindrops fall
Into empty hollow

As we all know
This uncertain world

Listen
Please
Listen

When I say
I am broken


Because all you do
Is gaslight
And pretend
That there’s

No problem

Please don’t tell me
It can be fixed
When you haven’t
Got
A clue

When I describe
A problem
Next time
Please stick with me
And hold on

Carry me in a gaze

Because it’s just my
Little way of saying

I just need

Someone’s

Loving

I know I can't help them
So why do you try
Why do you spend hours
Awake at night

Why do you tremble
Why do you scream
The pain isn't yours
It's not what it seems

You stand there alone
Starfish in hand
You try and and throw far
But it stays on the land

Your arm becomes sore
Your heart becomes tired
Even your conscious
Is no longer wired

You're breaking alone
Deathbeds begun
But everything's worth it
If I can save one

Your spice was nice

Your sugar was sweet

You were nothing nice but
Chemical X felt so loving in defeat..


The main ingredient was alcohol that made me fall

The love from chemical ex held it all

The sweetest demon would give me a different reason to end it all

And through it all,

She cried treason cause i got to preachin, no more demons reachin, hopin my family dont get involved

So she clawed, and gnawed, at a lonely man whos killin himself by his own hand with no reason to tell me why I love her at all.

I lay backwards on a mattress and cry static to God, screamin Im an addict in hopes chemical X dont end it all

I have a son on the way and if i die today he wont even understand it at all..

Please help me




Please

Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light for my path.
The path to withstand my evil’s desired wrath.

Lead me by your truth and teach me,
Strike me deep in my heart, Jesus I can be.
For you are the God who saves me,
Who bloomed a fruit in my worthless tree.

All day long I put my hope in you.
You’re the God, who showed me what’s true.
For he made everything such a beauty,
Though as for me, I am poor and needy,
but the lord is thinking about me right now.”
And he will guide me, even if I don’t know how.

The lord is my shepherd; I have everything I need.
He is the only one, who can make me succeed!

For I sin in my earthly routine,
Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow,
Make me pure, as I live and show.

How could I be afraid to grow?
For he orders his angels to protect you wherever you go.

Is that art?
Is it meant to tear me apart?
An art
Art that embodies the heart

For I need a refresh
A way to sample all this mess
Hopefully a way to de-stress
Maybe one day I'll get

Get it all
Get it soon
One day I'll come out of the cocoon
Although it feels like a typhoon
Hitting me
Shifting me

Tearing me into pieces
Pain that I hope ceases
A way to refresh
An out
Completely new flesh

That light above me, I'll never reach it
My long arms are covered in white mould
It's spreading.

Trapped in this rigid bark
I can only grow to reach where I want to be
My actions are bound by a time I don't have.

I wish someone would take the burden
To free me from my rotten parts.
Fruits can't hang from what's dead.

A man assisted

me, just an ordinary --


man, not from heaven.

Cold, perhaps even

everything, you can endure --


with a companion.