What have you done to me
The things you've done
Back and forth
You mess with my mind
I'm close to insanity
What kind of love
Take you brain
And switches it
With your heart

**** love I’m done trying,
My heart is big but beats so quiet,
My love for you was so unknown,
But I have not seen you since you have last grown,

God willing I kiss your soft lips again,
Engage in that beautiful tasting ,experience,
My love don’t forget me but instead i say,
**** love I’m done trying...

Why even try,
When it means nothing
To anyone?
Does anyone see
I've been trying?
How don't they see
It hurts?
-When all they do is point out
My flaws!-

Why even try,
When I could
End it tonight?
Would anyone even notice
Me gone?
So tell me what's the point
To stay what they so call "alive"?
-When I already feel dead!-

Why even try,
If nobody notices me?
Why tell me it
Gets better
When it only gets worse?
How could someone
Lie to a broken person
Like me?
-When I'm already on the edge!-

Why even try,
When all I worry about
Is a smile appearing on my face?
Where is my happiness?
How do I cope with this?
-Every second I want
To cut
To feel alive!-

That's it!
I'm done!
No more!
No more trying to please others!
I give up!
I'm done!
You win!

Of all the things I e’er done,
The talks I miss the most,
Of which to night would not succumb,
Or morning force repose.

Of all the things I’ll e’er do,
I hope once more to say
The words which I had come to find
Were absent yesterday.

For all the things I wished I did,
I wish that I said less
As silence is much better heard
Than nonsense, I confess.

i used your love letter to spit out my gum

My heart aches from within
But nothing can be done
Cause memories are there to stay
None have faded away
Only bittersweet feelings
Are left studded in my heart
Removing them might seem hard
Surely enough you can tear it apart
But no one knows the scars left behind
That takes forever to heal
At times may never be done.