What is done is done
My pictures fade
To black and white
They have lost their colors
There is not much I can do
Because what is done is done
A motorcycle or a car would be no good for me
Because I don't know how to drive a motorcycle or a car
I have no license
It would be parked in my driveway rusting away
I would have to sell it
And get some cash
What is done is done
In spite of it all
I am feeling better
How many roads I must walk to get to you?
Because what is done is done
My love for you is unconditional
It is a lucky day that I can have sometime for myself
Without thinking about old stuff
That is now worthless to me
Because what is done is done
My sweet one is God
I am sure he knows that
I mention it to him a thousand times
Because what is done is done
My world is now on fire
There is plenty of shame that I feel
I am trying to build a better life for me
My roots are superficial here on earth where I stand
Because what is done is done
I still can change it
You are now looking in the eyes of a criminal
- That is me
Where does my faith come in?
Nobody else knows my feelings better than me
And I know what is done is done
I will not let the bad dreams wake me up in the middle of the night
Because they were strange dreams
I had them before
I can't change the fact that I had done those things before
Because what is done is done
I am surfacing in this land
What is done is done
The moon holds its water
So that the temperature in the winter time can be mild
The moon plays an important role in my life
When there is a full moon I know I sometimes act strange
Because what is done is done
Shelter me
Where I can forget about the things that happened to me a while ago
Because what is done is done
I will wear my love like heaven
Everyday
The clocks move fast
The time moves ahead fast
I need some solace from God and you
I just hope someday to embark on a new mission
Because now I am fumbling towards ecstasy
I looked everywhere I could for you
But that love died
After it was burning my skin
The scars are left
But I have high hopes for me
Because what is done is done
Is there somebody who will love me all the way?
Because what is done is done
I have been hurting too many people over and over again
With my violence
I hope to learn from this lesson and never do it again
Because what is done is done
Now I feel that I can't be a role model to anyone
I feel powerless
I have no power to control my temptations at the moment
I hope somebody will give it to me
And that somebody should be God
Because what is done is done
Nothing is broken other than my life
You never saw me crying like this before
It is because I am living a broken life
I am living with lies that people told me
They believed they knew me
That is not true
Who am I?
Who is this man with the brilliant and sharp mind?
They need to learn
I need to start over
And make something out of my life
Time is moving on
And if I don't take the chance I have I might lose it all
I am so far
I am out of reach
I am now trying to repair my broken life
Because what is done is done
If you could just say a prayer for me
I would appreciate it very much
But remember that I am far away
Out of reach
I hope someday I will be able to love you still
Because what is done is done
Do I know the color of my life?
Yes I should have known better
I acted on impulse
What is done is done
How does it feel to me knowing that I have a criminal record?
Bad, bad, bad
But what is done is done
I wish I could let go of my anger
I hope I will be able to do it
I need to work on it
Imagine me living in peace with myself and the ones I had hurt
Sometimes things are so complicated
Some things I have no control over
But
The things I do have control over is my behavior: the way I think, the Way I feel, And the way I Communicate with people
The things that I can't control is the war, terrorism, and the pollution that Is In the air
Will I see a happy ending to my life?
Who will pick up the pieces now that I have fallen to pieces?
What is done is done
Love comes to everyone
But not to me this time
I can forgive others
Someday I will forgive myself
When my life will be no longer broken
Not even one chance I will get
Now the judges hold my fate
And I have to play their game
I have no way out of it
Inside of me there is a desire to scream
Now I am standing at the crossroads
Trying to read the signs
To tell me which way I should go
To find all the answers that I need to fix my broken life
I don't care if it is right or wrong
For me to be at the crossroads
But one thing that I know
Is that there are lot's of questions popping up in my mind
I'll be there and back once my life is not broken anymore
It is time for me to just sit back
And wait for the world to come and crash down on my head
And I know that what is done is done
I feel so restless right now
I am sleeping at the park
This is because I have so much going through my mind
I am sleeping the night away
The dark night is my only companion
Not a sound I hear
Not even the traffic
Or people passing by
This is my problem
Nobody else’s
Because what is done is done
If I ever lose my mind again
I will have to stop and think before I act on impulse
Everything in my life must change soon
Because my life is broken
I feel once again the body heat rising
It keeps me warm in this night
Just once God will you save me this time?
God I'm yours
Because what is done is done
God I don't want to let you down
Say you are going to be mine God
I will give patience a chance
That is all that is left for me to do
Is there a chance for me to go to heaven?
God I was this time a prisoner inside the jail cell
It is even horrible to think about it
But what is done is done
Before I was thinking about God
I had woken up
And I saw something
I thought it was a shadow
But I found out sooner or later that it was God
That came for me
I kiss the wind
I am so unfortunate to be caught in a web of spiders
I am struggling in this uncaring snare
I yearn for a loving heart to call my own
I am speaking into the wind
My cries go to the right ear
Is there an escape?
Perhaps yes if only in the recesses of my mind
I will wait and I will listen
I will hear the one searching for me that is God
I will reach out with my soul and touch another
The one that I will is God
I will embrace God because he is close to me now
My restless empty heart stands still
I will listen to the sounds of the wind
As the wind gently touches my skin
I also need one to trust
To share
And not wanting to be alone
I will speak
Because God wants to hear my pleas
I am opening my arms to welcome the one that is calling for me
- That is God
Like a kiss in the wind
My feelings are there
Carried by and through the wind
God I am also alone like them
I can trust you with your love
I am reaching out
I am hearing you speak to me
Softly and yet so loud
I hear your voice saying
Just kiss the wind
For I am here:
“A careless word may kindle strife
A cruel word may wreck a life
A bitter word may hate instill
A brutal word may smite and ****
A gracious word may light a day
A timely word may lessen stress
A loving word may heal and bless”
Because what is done is done

She was done not fully being herself.
She realized she was the only self she could be—and not being unapologetically true to herself was a disservice to her soul and the world.
She was done listening to the noise of the world. She realized the quiet voice of her own soul was the most beautiful sound.
She was done questioning her motives, her intentions, the call of her soul. She realized questions seek answers, and maybe she already knew the answers.
She was done striving, forcing, pushing through and staying on the hard path. She realized toughing things out might be a sign to pick another path.
She was done with friends that admonished her to be more light and breezy. She realized they didn’t understand she swam in the deep waters of life, she felt at home in their dark depths and died if she lived on the surface.
She was done with the distractions, the denials, the small addictions that pulled her away from the true desires of her soul. She realized that strength of character came from focus and commitment.
She was done not following the desires that yelled out in her soul every day. She realized if she did nothing about them, they died a quiet death that took a piece of her soul with them.
She was done with dinner parties and cocktail hours where conversations skimmed the surface of life. She realized the beverages created distortion and a temporary happiness that wasn’t real and disappeared in the light of the day.
She was done trying to please everyone. She realized it could never be done.
She was done questioning herself. She realized her heart knew the truth and she needed to follow it.
She was done analyzing all the options, weighing the pros and cons and trying to figure everything out before leaping. She realized that taking a leap implied not fully seeing where she landed.
She was done battling with herself, trying to change who she knew herself to be. She realized the world made it hard enough to fully be herself, so why add to the challenge.
She was done worrying, as if worry was the price she had to pay to make it all turn out okay. She realized worry didn’t need to be part of the process.
She was done apologizing and playing small to make others feel comfortable and fit in. She realized fitting in was overrated and shining her light made others brave enough to do the same.
She was done with the should’s, ought to’s and have to’s of the world. She realized the only must’s in her life came from things that beat so strong in her soul, she couldn’t not do them.
She was done with remorse and could have’s. She realized hindsight never applies because circumstances always look different in the rearview mirror and you experience life looking through the front window.
She was done with friendships based on shared history and past experiences. She realized if friends couldn’t grow together, or were no longer following the same path, it was okay to let them go.
She was done trying to fit in—be part of the popular crowd. She realized the price she had to pay to be included was too high and betrayed her soul.
She was done not trusting. She realized she had placed her trust in people that were untrustworthy—so she would start with the person she could trust the most—herself.
She was done being tired. She realized it came from spending her time doing things that didn’t bring her joy or feed her soul.
She was done trying to figure it all out, know the answers, plan everything and see all the possibilities before she began. She realized life was unfolding and that the detours and unexpected moments were some of the best parts.
She was done needing to be understood by anyone but herself. She realized she was the only person she would spend her whole with and understanding herself was more important than being understood by others.
She was done looking for love. She realized loving and accepting herself was the best kind of love and the seed from which all other love started.
She was done fighting, trying to change or not her accepting her body. She realized the body she came into the world with was the only one she had—there were no exchanges or returns—so love and acceptance was the only way.
She was done being tuned in, connected and up-to-date all the time. She realized the news and noise of the world was always there—a cacophony that never slowed or fell quiet and that listening to the silence of her soul was a better station to tune into.
She was done beating herself up and being so ******* herself as if either of these things led to changes or made her feel better. She realized kindness and compassion towards herself and others accomplished more.
She was done comparing and looking at other people’s lives as a mirror for her own. She realized holding her own mirror cast her in the best, most beautiful light.
She was done being quiet, unemotional and holding her tongue. She realized her voice and her emotions could be traced back to her deepest desires and longings. if she only followed their thread.
She was done having to be right. She realized everyone’s truth was relative and personal to themselves, so the only right that was required was the one that felt true for her.
She was done not feeling at home in the world. She realized she might never feel at home in the world, but that feeling at home in her soul was enough.
She was done being drained by others—by people who didn’t want to take the time for their own process and saw shortcuts though hers. She realized she could share her experience, but everyone needed to do the work themselves.
She was done thinking she had so much to learn. She realized she already knew so much, if she only listened.
She was done trying to change others or make them see things. She realized she could only lead by example and whether they saw or followed was up to them.
She was done with the inner critic. She realized its voice was not her own.
She was done racing and being discontent with where she was. She realized the present moment held all it needed to get her to the next moment. It wasn’t out there—it was right here.
She was done seeing hurt as something to be avoided, foreseen or somehow her fault. She realized hurt shaped her as much as joy and she needed both to learn and grow.
She was done judging. She realized judging assumed the presence of right and wrong—and that there was a difference between using information to inform and making someone else wrong.
She was done jumping to conclusions. She realized she only needed to ask.
She was done with regrets. She realized if she had known better she would have done better.
She was done being angry. She realized anger was just a flashlight that showed her what she was most scared of and once it illuminated what she needed to see, she no longer needed to hold on to it.
She was done being sad. She realized sorrow arose when she betrayed her own soul and made choices that weren’t true to herself.
She was done playing small. She realized if others couldn’t handle her light, it was because they were afraid of their own.
She was done with the facades and the pretending. She realized masks were suffocating and claustrophobic.
She was done with others’ criticism and complaints. She realized they told her nothing about herself—only informed her of their perspective.
She was done yelling above the noise of the world. She realized living out loud could be done quietly.
She was done needing permission, validation or the authority. She realized she was her her own authority.
She was done being something she was not. She realized the purpose of life was to be truly, happily who she was born to be,and if she paused long enough to remember, she recognized herself.*

Adrienne Pieroth

I'm done fighting
I'm done trying
Im done with bruises
Im done with excuses
Im done with lies
Im done drying my eyes
Im done with the pain
Im done with you controlling my brain
Im done having hope
Im done with you and your dope
Im done with your drunken rage
Im done feeling like Im trapped in a cage
Im done with you playing victim
Im done being your victim
Im done being weak
Im done with you making me feel meek
Im done trying to convince you
Im done being abused by you
Im done being stepped on
Im done thinking your the one
Im done trying to get you to talk to your son
Im done giving you chances
Im done with second glances
Im done with you
Im just done noone to blame but you

I'm done, I'm finished, I'm over it I am I truly am I have to be, because you're done too, because we're through, because you truly are, so I say I'm done, if my friends ask I say I'm done, "oh yeah we're not a thing anymore.. Yeah I broke up with her " but we all know it's a lie, but I'm done, I definitely am done, I definitely don't think about you before I go to bed, I definitely don't think about you on my way home, no I'm definitely done yes that's what I have to say, I'm done, just as a lion is done eating meat, just as the devil is done playing with my mind, just as a book is done with words or a sky is done with raining or the sun done with shining yes I'm ******* done! I'm done looking for a straw in a stack of needles, I'm done looking for what I read in a romantic novel, I'm done doing everything based on the movies I've seen, I'm done using the words I learned from my favorite video games, I'm done assuming my princess in distress is waiting for me for I am no knight in shining armor, no sir, I am done falling for your tricks, I'm done playing your games, I played them before and now the devil holds my soul, it was stupid to bet on my soul for whatever I thought I had but my was it worth it, for it taught me the lesson I needed, a lesson I should've learned a long time ago, a lesson learned too late, and so, before I lose what little I have left I bow to your generosity, I thank you for your passion, I admire you for your mercy, for I wouldn't have shown you the same, I wouldn't have taken the time to teach you how you weren't my last jigsaw piece, I wouldn't have taken the time to show you where you went wrong and I definitely wouldn't have taken the time to write my goodbye letter, no I wouldn't, I would've said I'm done, done with being in love with you, I would've said I'm done caring about you, done with all of you, but you beat me to it, you pulled the trigger first, you decided for me, you chose my future and you were already done, so I find myself, on a bus seat, on my way home, thinking about you and I then repeat the lie I have to believe, I'm done

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I'm done.

Done with trying too hard
Done with sleepless nights
Done with disappointment
Done with being a disappointment

Done with hearing their voices in my head
Done with seeing visions of my abuse
Done with being around people
That just don't care

I know they care
But my brain tells me they can't be trusted
They're like everyone else
I avoid "everyone else"

I'm done with my anxiety
Done with my sexuality
Done with my gender
Done with my PTSD

Done trying to pretend I'm happy
When all I've wanted to do is cry
But crying would make others uncomfortable
And doing that in the past led to peer abuse

I'm done with my brain going on tangents
Done with having a constant smile on my face
Even though it's fake
And everyone knows it is

Done with heaving after a panic attack
Done with my abusive visions becoming reality
Done with feeling nothing
Done with being anything

Done with breathing
Done with living
Because at this point
What is there to live for?

Can I be done yet?
Can I be done with the lies
And the fear that someday
Your back will turn on me
As it has to so many others
Can I be done with the being let down
Because the expectations I have of you
Aren't even that high
I just wanted you to be there for me
But you left.

Can I be done yet?
Done with the broken promises
Of love and otherwise
Because you had no intention
Of ever putting meaning into those empty words
Can I be done with the back and forth
I need a constant
I need you to stay
Or I need you to go
But I don't need you popping in and out as you please
And I would rather it is you just disappeared

Can I be done yet?
Can I be done with feeling like I'm not good enough for you
Or your family
Even though I have never tried harder
To be worthy of someone
Can I be done with the judgment
And the subtle ways you prove to me
That you will always be
More important to me
Than I am to you

Can I be done yet?
Can I be done with feeling like I owe you something
When you have done
Absolutely nothing for me
Except make me feel as if
I am unloved
By the people I love most
Can I be done with always worrying about you
When you don't bat an eyelash at me
Why do I know your problem
But you don't know mine
And more importantly
Why don't you tell me yourself

Can I be done yet?
Can I be done with doing everything for you
With nothing in return
With promises of payback
But those words always being empty
And void of any true intention
Can I be done with the disrespect
And having to get along
With everyone you tell me to
But you never want to be around my friends
Because they aren't good enough for you

Can I finally be done yet?

some days the sun shines
some days the sky pours out on us
and before that all the dawn's good light goes
why bother asking you why
all you know is that it ought to be blue
but buildings always turn to gray up high
so how wrong can you be?

don't lie to me
don't come crying to me about all of your mistakes
i'm done with your problems
done being your solution, sounding board for bigger better things
i'm done with this
done with all of your ****
done being what you have to kick around

this building aint well structured
and we're the ivy falling off the sides
to find a better place for all our roots and shoots up in sidewalks are better
your AC was so dry
your humors outdated
you're problems all too trite
why the hell would i put up with that?

don't lie to me
don't come crying to me about all of your mistakes
i'm done with your problems
done being your solution, sounding board for bigger better things
i'm done with this
done with all of your ****
done being what you have to kick around

if it rains it pours with you
cant see the sunset for the clouds
cant be all that i supported
i'll be done with you and all your failings too
done with all your mistakes and tears
goodnight
goodbye
i'm done being your own **** up
don't you dare lie to me
i'm done with your problems
done being your solution, sounding board for bigger better things
done being what you have to kick around
done being what you have to kick around.

I'm done with the games
I'm done with the lies
I'm done being something convenient
For your pretty little eyes

I'm done believing what you say
I'm done buying all of your ****
I'm done not feeling loved by you
Not even a tiny bit

I'm done wasting time
I'm done being used
I'm done being on the back burner
Left feeling nothing but abused

I'm done trying so hard
I'm done thinking we will be okay
I'm done thinking I have a chance
This game is not something I want to play

And so as hard as it is
I'm done wanting you
I'm done loving you
You'll be sorry when one day you wake up
And you can't breathe
Because what you did to me
Caused me to leave