This hurts,
Like nothing I’ve ever felt I feel like my mind is slowly turning a darker shade of you
Like the walls I’ve so carefully built are rotting from the inside
It’s rain damage in the foundation of who we were,
Damaged from the start, it was destined to end this way
I just wish we had more time before you showed me the true nature of your foul and inconsidered words.
And you defended yourself valiantly but you stood your ground when it was the ground you stood on that stands between us.
Our scares are the battleground we wage war upon, like my hurt means a thing on this cold April night.
These snow storms in spring remind me that not everything can follow a code of rules,
Some spirits can’t be tamed and yours is a beast I’ve fallen in love with
But it’s that love believe it or not that leads me to the conclusion that we could have never even landed with the stars despite our aims.
We were always earthbound

I am broken,
Come name your price

Hidden in the shelter
of a lonely life

Come choose your savage
See their perfect disguise

You could never love me
Cause I live in these lies

I am damaged goods
I’m misunderstood

I come in the perfect packaging
Wrapped up in severed ties

Stamped with a sticker on top
Come, name your price.

I am damaged goods
I am damaged goods
I am damaged goods.

I am lonely
In this sea of maddening sounds

I am hurt
From those people who aren’t around

I break my happiness
At every chance I get

And then I’ll ask myself
Why I feel so depressed

I am damaged goods
I’m misunderstood

I come in the perfect packaging
Wrapped up in severed ties

Stamped with a sticker on top
Come, name your price.

I am damaged goods
I am damaged goods
I am damaged goods.

I can’t get out
Fromt this crippling doubt

I feel so empty without
You there beside me

I need somewhere to go
Somewhere in the great unknown

Somewhere I can be alone

I am damaged goods
I’m misunderstood

I am damaged goods
I’m misunderstood

I come in the perfect packaging
Wrapped up in severed ties

Stamped with a sticker on top
Come, name your price.

I am damaged goods
I am damaged goods
I am damaged goods.

He refused to leave
He was gone but still here
He haunted my thoughts
I still lived in fear
He would never return
But he never left
I would never hear his voice
But it’s still in my head
I still see him occupying the left side of my bed
I still see the broken smile and the mischief in his eyes
I still feel his fingernails crawling on my skin
Leaving his mark on me
Making me sick
With fear
With pain
I can still hear his voice screaming out my name
Making me feel ashamed
Bursting my heart into flames


He was a utilitarian
He believed what he felt he had to
He understood what he wanted to

He was a usurper
He took away my dreams
He stripped me of my high self-esteem

I gave him all I had
Unintentionally
His eyes enslaved me
My willpower nowhere around when he faced me

He made me weak
His megalomania affected me
Made me feel useless without him
And even now that he’s locked away
In a mental asylum a hundred miles away
He still has power over me

My home is still filled with his presence
My head still filled with the memories
Of him
And me

It should not be that way
But that’s exactly the way it is
No matter how hard I try
I can never be truly free from him
Or his hold on me.

Father forgive me
For you know that I am always sinning
I take no interest in partying with liquor,
******* up my system

Excuse my language
That's a hangup for how ******,
I've been feeling

I'm sorry
I feel no attraction,
You know that its been a minute
Cause I've been so alone for so long

Losing interest
you won't find no better than this,
I swear girl if you leave
just let me know
so it won’t hurt bad
when you move

Tell me why i'm waiting
For somebody,
That couldn't give a **** about me
Oh,
Oh you wouldn't.

I’m wearing your red flag.
You now have a strand of my hair in your possession.
I breathe into your brown paper bag.
And my lips are swollen.
I succumb to the pollution as I inhale your tainted air.

I’ve grown up in so many ways.
Yet I still have fool written on my face.
My skin is up in flames.
It’s crowded here in my hiding place.
Will these demons ever call it a day?

This place is infected with your poison
And so is my sanity.
My thoughts conditioned to your control.
Powerless against the storm in my mind.
Just another lost soul.

If someone flinches when you want to put your arm around them
Someone else's hand wasn't that nice

If someone questions you
Someone else has lied to them

If they don't tell you everything
Someone else betrayed their secrets

Behind every cranky, complicated person
Or every person who is afraid to love
Is someone who's tired of being hurt

I don't remember the last time someone told me the truth before their lies had already damaged me irreparably.

I always make things harder than it needs to be, I run in circles and complain when I'm dizzy, walk up a steeper route only to slide all the way down to the bottom, push everyone far enough for them to leave then say I'm lonely. It's funny what I can ruin – everything.

I'm like a chemical, the only one known to corrode friendships and rust nothing but itself. Not approved by the FDA and definitely not fit for human consumption. I reek of such acidity that I hurt fragile corneas and sting delicate noses. It's kind of ironic because I'm supposed to only react with this peculiar clear liquid called self-sabotage and only that, but somehow I have managed to slip and ruin everything that comes in contact with me.

Maybe one day I'll find someone that doesn't mind damaged corneas and sharp smells up their nose. Maybe one day I myself won't mind it.