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Raven Oct 2021
Written spells and locked doors.
Mental dispels and cursed flaws.
Aching tensions and delusional illusions.
Illusive dreams and paths to explore.
Wide awake, like a bat...
My mind is on high alert, it never goes to sleep.
Constant mental chatter, an over-active mental state.
It is eternal and I live in the misery and learn to control it.
Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.
My mind is it's own person, it's own monster.
It opposes different ideologies, beliefs, and conflicts, into one.
I question my mind and talk to myself like a mad clown.
Conversating in my own form.

Boundless amount of wit and seedless unpleasant jokes.
Dark and uncensored, explicit and provocative.
A ***** tongue with **** lips to make you want to play with me more.

But am I really what you desire?
Or have you created your own storm.
Do I reflect you?
Or do you just reflect yourself through me.

Smile through the misery, you can't die with a serious face.
Stitch up the corners and pull it up high so you never have to cry again.
Maybe I am you, or maybe I am just suffering through my own madness.
Maybe my madness has become someone else.
My actions of contradictory displays.
But you love me though...

Lets play
There was a guy who acted the clown at college?
Because he thought it was cool to be that way?
But he really liked a girl called Bev Granville and hated;
When everybody called her Open All Hour's from the British sit com Open All Hour's?
He said her name's Bev?
So there was a guy who acted the clown at college?
Because he thought it was cool to be that way?
But really he joked with the girl to try and make her laugh?
But really that guy just wanted to say Bev?
I think I love you?
So do you feel the same?
But just being your friend was a joy as well.
Just sitting with you was like being in heaven itself?
She was beautiful outwardly, but more importantly she was inwardly beautiful as well; so she was never a mean girl or thought she was better than the rest.
But saying I think I love you would have been too much of a risk for this clown.
So saying he thinks he loves you in front of other lads was too much of a risk for him; this was just in case you didn't feel the same; you see his image mattered too much to him?
He loved his time with you in math's class and study time with you in the college library?
But I think she only liked him like a good friend in honesty?
They were good friends in truth.
He hated the week she was off sick from college that week seemed to last forever?
Our time together were the best two year's of his life.
So he had to make jokes to just talk to you?
Yes that clown was me,
Yes that clown was me,
Yes that clown was me!
14/10/2021
TomDoubty Sep 2021
spiral learning
spiral failing
life is always spiral
spiralling
twist me up
spin me down
give me a plastic sequinned crown
now I'm the bloated circus clown
ha ha you laugh!
at my dripping mascara and baggy pants
my **** in a bucket of sawdust
a pie in my face

the poles are pulled
the big top falls

sobbing in the stubs
and sweet smell of candies
I lie suffocating
sad and bloated
a clown in a plastic sequinned crown
Tess M Jun 2021
all around me are couples,
walk around,
frightened and clinging
to each other
clowns jumping out,
chain saws screeching on

paralyzed in fear
crying in extreme anger
everything in me
screams to have control
yet I keep

failing
Friends come and go
I wish you didn't have to go
Friends change
Friend's betray
Friends lie to your face
Telling you that they're OK

A friend can laugh the loudest
A friend can be the group clown
You can find that same friend hanging from a rope
Shattering everything that you thought you know

Some friends are tenacious
Determined to give up
When you left you tore us up
i was forced to say goodbye to the clown
🤡🖤
Claire Billings Feb 2021
You hold your scepter and make cruel jokes

You're nothing but a jester in a poor man's crown

With every badly executed slight your bells jingle causing attention drawn to you

In attempt to bring others down, you just became a one-man show
Steve Sagovac Jan 2021
The horses and dancers, the acrobats too.
The ringmaster and all the beasts in the zoo.

At the end of the show, received huge adulation.
With thunderous cheers and a standing ovation.

But the funny men with baggy pants and large shoes
Got a different reaction, thrown fruit and loud boo’s.

Well their smiles turned to rage and confused irritation
As they stood there and suffered the crowds indignation.

They ripped off their noses and popped their balloons,
No more will with they play for these mindless buffoons.

So they piled into their car and it’s needless to say,
As they drove off, the clowns were quite angry that day
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