So bored, scrolling through social media sites.
I see you've updated.
Excited, I message you.
Just a simple, "Hi."
Shortly, I realize my mistake.
The recent picture, it shows you with your friends.
Laughing, having fun.
I remembered what you said yesterday.
"I'll be at the carnival tomorrow!"
Your face in the photo looks so, so happy.
Smiling brightly, eyes shining.
All the things I could never make you feel.
What's the point anymore?
I delete my message.
You won't be answering anyways.
You're out there, having a great day.
And where am I?
Just here.
Wherever that is.
Sitting, staring at this screen, watching, waiting.
It's all too much to handle, imagining you today out with your buddies.
Playing in the sun, on the carnival rides
without me.
We used to be close, so close.
What happened?
I was thrown out, like a broken toy.
Tell me, to you, am I nothing at all?
Unbearable.
I scroll past the picture trying to hold in the tears.
It's all too much.
I can't do this anymore.
I can't pretend.
It hurts, it hurts so much.
I know, deep down, I still love you.
Even though I cut that ribbon, it's weaving back.
Why now?
It shouldn't do that, you clearly didn't care.
So why still do I?
I clutch my chest, let out that sob.
The tears come falling.
The ribbon's back.
I'm sorry.
I don't want to hurt you.
I feel so, so, alone.
I'm so sorry.
I fell in love with you all over again.
It's torturous.
Once again, I'm feeling alone.
