paranoia is fear
no, fear goes away
paranoia is worse than fear
paranoia is being curious and afraid
paranoia takes over your thoughts,
paranoia manipulates your thoughts and emotions,
turns them into something ugly;
something terrifying
not even you can comprehend it in your mind
not even you, can picture what you are afraid of
paranoia never dies.

as paranoia becomes a part of you,
you become constantly anxious
when you begin to overthink,
your heart stops
because you finally realized what you are afraid of.
you are afraid of your own thoughts.
you are afraid of yourself.

I start over after seeing my mistake
Will I make it this time, will I not?
I have many ideals on what I want
but can I really make them true?

I fall, I cry, and I lie
but how soon will I die?

I need an answer for I can't count on anyone no more

Will I ever see the light again or just clocks ticking as I continue to struggle to change the past?

I need a way out but I just have you in mind, I have sworn to save you no matter what they may throw at me

I must try again and again till I reach you finally because maybe then that day you won't run away and you'll stay

A sorrowful gust of wind blew in-between you and me,
I shivered in the cold yet you remain untouched.
For a long time, I chased your shadow.
Afraid of losing sight of you.
afraid of forgetting how you looked like.

But as time rolled on, so did we.
Drifted apart from one another.
The fear of being left behind gone.
Replaced by the fear of hearing your voice,
the fear of seeing you,
the fear of missing you again.

The clouds are grey
covering the skies.
As fear creeps in
to this heart of mine.

Darkness falls,
I don't know who to call.

Then I think of you. . .

And I become more afraid
you'll **** my all.