Once upon a time,
You called me an angel.

So for once,
I'll try flying up high,
Soaring into the wind.

The world gave up on you,
A little too soon.

They couldn't see the man,
Behind the beast.

Some didn't care enough,
Some didn't dare to.

You flashed warning signs,
When I ventured around you.

You let your guard off for me,
I let my secrets confide in you.

Some days flowers bloom in us,
The other days we crush them to nothing.

You grow cold towards me,
Shatter my heart without making a sound.

I scar you in the daylight,
Find comfort in your embrace in the darkness.

You tell me you aren't easy to love.
I tell you I don't want easy.

I want you.

I used to wish
To turn back time
All the time.

But today I realized that
If it weren't for the good days
Or the bad ones
I wouldn't be here
With the poeple
And places
That I am.

Now that I think of it
I don't want a single thing
To be different
In any way.

Now that I look back,
I can say
That
I'm proud of
My heartbreaks,
My failures,
And myself
To have made the choices
That I did.

So I turned my body
into a bleeding canvas.

I painted myself red.

I drew pretty rivers,
on my arms,
mountains and hills,
on my stomach,
and forest fire,
on my thighs.

Everything poured,
out of me,
until, I turned to nothing,
until, I faded into the dark.