I don't want there to be a day where I have to read a speech at my best friend's funeral because she commited suicide.

I don't want to have to say how cruel and horrid the world is to destroy such an amazing and innocent person.

I don't want to watch her happiness wipe away from her face as sadness and darkness plagues her heart.

I don't wanna get that call in the middle of the night telling me my friend is gone.

I don't want to dream of her smiling, to wake up to a dying soul.
But a dream is only a dream..

I don't want to be watched by a ghost of a friend who didn't want to live.

But, it's happening. People will keep being cruel to the most loving people, until they no longer want to be in this hell.

I don't want to watch a friend die.

Please don't make me.

You said: "I'll go to another country, go to another shore,
find another city better than this one.
Whatever I try to do is fated to turn out wrong
and my heart lies buried like something dead.

How long can I let my mind moulder in this place?
Wherever I turn, wherever I look,
I see the black ruins of my life, here,
where I've spent so many years, wasted them, destroyed them totally."
You won't find a new country, won't find another shore.
This city will always pursue you.
You'll walk the same streets, grow old
in the same neighborhoods, turn gray in these same houses.
You'll always end up in this city. Don't hope for things elsewhere:
there's no ship for you, there's no road.
Now that you've wasted your life here, in this small corner,
you've destroyed it everywhere in the world.

I tried to be that girl for you
Even though I didn't know what to do
Did everything I could to fit in
Even changed the friends I hung out with
But in the end, you broke my heart
Ripped me inside out, tore me apart
I cried for days and Oh, so many nights
My new friends dumped me, my old friends were right
I finally got over you, hung out with my friends
And you smiled at me, and then
The cycle started, but I changed some things
I hung out with my old friends and warily accepted your rings
My heart slowly started to love
Hell below to Heaven above
You shattered me to pieces, I couldn't be repaired
You went for that girl, the fair-haired
I cried again and this time, I knew
You couldn't love anyone, the way I loved you
I never dated boys and
Realized that love was a poison
It was something much of a mistake
Even vampires die, stabbed in the heart with a stake
Love is wrong
Love cannot belong

Reality flashbacks
life spinning on a dime
open the doors of perception
let's commit a crime

Imagine a world where you are alone.
Everyone that you loved or hated are gone.
First it may be lonely.
Next it may be fun.
You could do whatever you wanted.
Eventually the loneliness will set in again.
This time worse than before.
Nobody to hate you.
Nobody to love you.

Now imagine a new world.
This time there are other people.
There is just one catch.
People will talk to you.
They might even laugh with you.
But in the end,
they don't act like friends.
They aren't there for you when you need them.
They aren't there when you're lonely.
They won't let you feel welcome.
Is this better than the previous world?
Is it better to I think you have friends, to just find out that you don't?
Or is it better to know that there is nobody already?

Now... Imagine a world like the last.
But don't judge so fast.
This world is different from the rest.
What you might miss makes this one the best.
This is not as bad
this is not nearly as sad.
Now there are people that will be there for you without saying please
Their friendship will be true with these With friends you won't be alone.
You will not be on your own.
This is the world of friends.

You are not too old to dream a dream
Not too weak to walk a mile
If you really want to see the light
There at the end of the tunnel, you can find
When you take the risk, when you take the chance...