He was 16 Trying to be
The perfect guy
Trying to make
Someone understand
How addicted he was
To self destruction
To sadness to the feeling
Of a cold blade
Of an empty stomach
There was nothing
He could say
He could only
Sit in his room
And dream about dying

The way I love her is unlike anything I've ever felt
My heart is literally melting
When she calls me
I hear her voice
And I'm at peace
My eyes meet hers
When I see her face  
And it brings tears to my eyes
I miss her so much even though I'm looking at her
Nothing can stray me away from her
She's the most amazing, worthy, lovely person I'll ever know
I want her to be my wife
She belongs in my life
I'm so in love it hurts
A pain so sweet

My mind wanders as I'm trying not to fall in love with you.
'Cause every time I awake I ponder on my mistakes of what I said.
It's always my esteeme that I sure lose.
Playing those stupid games, I will always end up chasing you.

"I want you more than i want the
oxygen in my lungs.
I crave you more than I crave sleep at
night.
They say where you sleep is home, but
honestly,  the moment you fall into my
arms, that is my home."

I tried to be good at something
But I ended up being a noting
I was smiling
Even though I felt like crying
I felt so alone
Like I was in this all on my own
I could only hurt myself
Because there felt like nothing else
I was lying and lying
No one knew what I was hiding
I wanted to die
And no one knew why
I'll just go to bed
And hope I wake up dead

Would you care if I ended it all tonight,
Left just like that, out of sight?
My demons are screaming at me to attack,
And this time I'm not going to fight back.

"I wonder if I've ever been the topic of any of your poems,
God knows you've been the muse of all mine."

Getting attached to someone
Is the one most ******
Up things you can do

Once you're attached
There's no turning back
It becomes too late before
You even realize

It is terrifying when you
Realize that someone else
Is in control of your
happiness

Because when they walk away
You find yourself stuck
Attempting to re-gain
Control of yourself.

**I Hate This

Getting attached to someone
Is the one most ******
Up things you can do

Once you're attached
There's no turning back
It becomes too late before
You even realize

It is terrifying when you
Realize that someone else
Is in control of your
happiness

Because when they walk away
You find yourself stuck
Attempting to re-gain
Control of yourself.

**I Hate This

Getting attached to someone
Is the one most ******
Up things you can do

Once you're attached
There's no turning back
It becomes too late before
You even realize

It is terrifying when you
Realize that someone else
Is in control of your
happiness

Because when they walk away
You find yourself stuck
Attempting to re-gain
Control of yourself.

**I Hate This

it hurts
to know
   that you    
                          will never
                             look at me
                           the way
                                i look at
                              *you

Yesterday I really wanted to die
Now I understand why so many get high
They get to forget-
I still haven't found a way to do so yet
I have found a way to not let my tears escape
By taking a blade to my skin,
It allows me to keep my mind off emotional pain
And focus on my physical pain

Depression is like a disease
but we hide it oh so cleverly that no one sees

I tried to tell my father
But it ended up being the day I lost all respect for him
He told me it was a phase
He said I'm overreacting
But I never told him that I tried to take my own life-
Sometime's I wonder if it would even matter if I had been successful

One fine day in the middle of the night
Two dead boys got up to fight
Back to back they faced each other
Drew their swords and shot each other
One was blind and the other couldn't see
So they chose a dummy for a referee
A blind man went to see fair play
A dumb man went to shout "hooray!"
A paralysed donkey passing by,
Kicked the blind man in the eye ,
Knocked him through a nine inch wall,
Into a dry ditch and drowned them all,
A deaf policeman heard the noise,
And came to arrest the two dead boys,
If you don't believe this story's true,
Ask the blind man, he saw it too!

Every time we kiss, it feels like the first time.
It makes my head spin around.
It takes me to wonderful places, each one full of happiness.
Oh, how I long for your kiss