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Sie Aug 2015
Oh right I forgot, nothing ever lasts for me
I forgot I am the one who will get hurt
I forgot that I will be the one forgotten
I forgot to not let anyone in to my heart
I forgot that they will just break my heart
Sie Feb 2015
People tell me my love is wrong.
People tell me my love is sin.
People tell me my love will go to hell.

These people do not know what real love is.

When I am with her it's like I can clearly think for once.
When I am with her I can see the beauty and colors.
When I am with her I can see a future with happiness.

Then I kiss her and I know nothing will stop me.
<3
Sie Feb 2015
My nights may physically be dark as well as mentally.
But in the day,
when everything is supposed to be a gift with many colors and feelings
it just feels dull.
like it's still night .
I can't see any beauty or love.
I can only see hatred,
the feelings of anger towards everyone.
I hope that I become lost.
so I can no longer feel anything.
I want to be lost in a haze of colorful smoke. forever.
I have been gone for quite awhile.
I had tried sorting my life out.
It just didn't work.
Sie Oct 2014
All I can thibk of these days is you.
I remember when you said we were going to be best friends forever. I guess that was all naive middle school talk.
I guess it still hurts when i think about the past 2 years.
The summer you stopped texting and messaging me.
You started to dislike being near me.
Then you had a birthday party and I guess it was okay you were still my friend.
Freshman year is everything went down hill.
One friend left and i was pushed away.
You started acting like i wasn't really fun.
After i made a stupid ******* mistake you wouldn't forgive me.even after i apologized.
I havent heard you talk to me outside of class since last year.
I don't exists in your world.
I know it's stupid but sometimes i will sit there and stare at one of your blogs or look through your facebook photos.
Even though I know you don't care about me.
I will always be concerned about you.
My best friend has truly left. I see her everyday and all i want to do i scream at her or cry and hug her. But it never happens.
Sie Sep 2014
My body had been a torn up battle ground red streaks everywhere.
I never thought i would be better. except i did get better at least for awhile.
Deep down i thought i would never rip my body up again  despite that i knew it would happen.Then after a month or so of okay.
It happened  i drew with my silver blade. it left small red lines all over my thigh. easy to hide but it leaves a painful smile.
Torn up again and again will it ever end.
Sie Aug 2014
Sometimes i wish i could leave this world
Maybe not like die leaving
But leave to another reality of sorts
A fantasy world
Where i was happy and smiling
Somewhere i could be myself wearing tshirts and shorts
Somewhere i would hang out with real friends and feel secure
I wish i could be in that place
For now i fill that hole of longing with bad things
Thing with drugs and alchole and blades and sadness
Someday i will be in that world i long for
Sie Aug 2014
i think to myself death take me
take me away from this ugly world
all i get is silence
i flick open my pocketknife
the cold sharp blade is a relief
death please
i start to cut my skin
death take my soul
blood starts to drip deep red
death take my heart
press deeper with the blade
death take my life
with a clink of metal on the tiled floor
the ****** knife came to rest
death
departing from this world i thanked death
and said goodbye to everyone
death why are you so simply complicated?
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