I am but lost time in a lifetime,
Small movements disappearing in washed sand.
I can no longer bear this breathing,
Like needles upon the lungs.
Nothing ventured nothing changed,
The fire within dwindling to but a spark.
Shapeless in a crooked shaped world,
I am but lost time.
As far as I can see,
Is life but a memory?
Or a dream?

Just because it sounds good. Doesn't mean it makes sense.

Touch me
Love me, or at least tell me you do
Lie to me
And let me disappear
In this moment  
Craving the touch of a stranger
In the night
Pain, with pleasure as my relief
I know I'm mistaken
But I need him to numb me
Numb me enough to get through my days
Because this shallow sting will remain
And I will bear the stains
Of a secret lover
Who I will only be there for, in the sheets
And him, for me
In the night
Returning to the cold of mine
Oh, how bittersweet
This shall be
Love me, In The Night

You
I told about
what happened this summer,
about my father,
and his wife.

You
whom I just met,
6 days ago.

You
the guy that
made me feel more comfortable
than my own bed
and pillows.

You
scare me to no end
and

you,
make me happier
than I have
in the last 2 years.

Please don't leave me alone
with all of my thoughts.

"How are you?"

"I'm okay."

"Are you really?"*

                 ...

And I am left speechless.

I am falling...
deep
...into the darkness...
I can't see a thing
...of my own mind.
there is no light

Am I insane?
Save me please

I am falling
*deep into the darkness

why do i always fall for the
pretty boys
pretty boys
who always treat me like
little toys
little toys
why can't i fall for the
good guys
good guys
who can actually see the sadness
in my eyes
in my eyes