i have fallen in love
with the feeling of falling in love.*

i want to experience everything there is to experience when it comes to love.

your heart beating fast
finding it hard to breathe
feeling lightheaded and giddy
wanting true love's kiss.

i have fallen in love
with holding hands
looking into each other's eyes
talking to each other in hushed tones
sharing a secret that only they know.

i long to hold and to be held
i long to kiss and to be kissed
i long to spoil and to be spoiled

i have fallen in love
with the feeling of falling in love.

i have a problem.

sometimes, i am happy
uncontrollably so.
everything makes me smile.
and the sun shines in my heart.

but then there are days
when even under the sun
i bring in the rain.
it pours from my eyes
down my cheeks
to my mouth.

and i try to swallow
but i can't.
and everything crumbles
around me.

i lose myself.
and there is no one but me
who can
pick
t h o s e
p i e c e s
u p .

i have a problem.

i am my problem.

there are no clouds in the sky
the sky is so blue
it's so beautiful.

did you know?
i'd always say...
"the clouds remind me of you."

but now, there are no clouds in my sky.
there is no you in my sky.
and all that is left is a beautiful blue.

and i'm fine with that.
i like that.

i committed a sin
on the night of the eve
it was something
i swore i would
never forget.

i committed a sin
on the night of the eve
when everyone was happy
they were smiling
they were laughing.

i committed a sin
on the night of the eve
when husbands and wives
held hands
under the tree.

i committed a sin
on the night of the eve
do you remember,
past lover,
your anguished tears?

hello,
can you
hear me? I
want to talk to
you.

hello,
do you
still remember me? I
never forgot about
you.

hello,
am I
still important to you? You
occupy my mind all the
time.

hello,
do you
still
love
me?

because,
darling,
i still do.
*i still do.