Our sleeping thoughts reflect
our awakened minds.
The madness we hide from
Rolls like a cinema reel
behind resting eyes.
A movie of our lives
In distorted forms.

26 Dec. 2015

Chaos humdrum of roaring engines.
The lost siren between concrete slabs
Ricocheting its scream throughout
the hallway streets,
already echoing with horns and yells.

Sleepless and ever burning,
the city lurches on
in agonizing sounds
muffled between high rise pristine glass
and shanty shacks painted with dust.

The frantic commotion of agonized madness,
In zigzag traffic and potholed roads.
The stop and start of hustle and frustration
Rises and falls like a dancing dust storm.

Everything present in a quieter world
is lost in the struggle of city life.
There's no peace or silence here.
Just constant exhaustion in the luminescent roar of human chaos.

26 Dec. 2015

I look at me staring back,
A reflection of emotions storming through my past.
There's an empty space deep inside,
Where even demons fear to hide.

I walk through corridors in my mind,
Darkened by the silence of my movie reel memories.
Dragging my hand along the walls
Unable to find an unlocked door.

The stuttering images in my dreams,
Vivid in nightmarish Technicolor
Flashing like disco-tech
Before my bleeding eyes.
Knowing I can never unsee
All the pain in my muted cries.

The pain from the fickleness of your heart,
The hurt from your unwillingness
To be stronger, to try, to admit...
To walk beside my darkness...
Is greater than any knowledge
Of the comfort and laughter
You have in the scent and skin
Of someone else's voice, body, soul.*



The truth in your heart,
Is more valuable
Than the protection you think a lie gives
my heart.
I always feel the truth.
It vibrates, moving like kinetic energy,
Across the universe.
In my dreams
I see it as it is.
A lie is the greatest damage.
Every time.

There are days when the world,
Slips beneath your feet
Taking you down
Into the darkness:
An ocean of your tears.

A million spaces between us,
A million unknown voids
You won't talk about them.
But every move you make,
Vibrates back to my dreams.
And every lie you told,
I can see and feel across the seas.
I'm the only one who knows;
Left with these searing truths,
My mind wakes up screaming.

There are days the world
crashes around my silent agony.
Taking me down
To the depths of an ocean
Where all my heartache collects.

You walked away again,
Leaving me with ideas of you.
A feeling that your heart
never wanted me.
Despite all your tears,
And the words you swore were true,
The actions taken
Tell a thousand different stories of you.

Sleepless hours of destruction
in my shattering heart.
Tormented by visions of you
Holding someone else,
on the other side of this falling world:
A place I'll never be.
It's here you've left me.

The world as we know it
Has ended for us.
I've forgotten how it feels
To be chosen through love,
To be someone's only one.
Despite the fears.
Despite the unknown.
And it's tearing me apart.


Truth in actions is the only thing that saves us. So we fall apart, to the depths of our heartache, broken and destroyed, unwilling to breathe, but we stand up again and live out our truth: I deserve. That is the truth.

Sometimes the sway feels like marching
Marching like I’m dreaming
While sleeping with the wind
Upon a sailing, swaying sea.

                                                  These dreams carried me here
                                                  Fleets of souls past
                                                  Lost in my sail boats

These dreams become my home
Because the horizon is gone
And the sun is night,
The moon and stars my life, my love.

I may not know where I’m going
But I feel this forward rise and fall
And the march in my heart
Drums with a knowing beat, beat, beat.

Success swims beneath these bodies of water
The air stirs my hair and soul
Lifting me above unknowns
To a place, I’m taking myself, really slowly.

Through the sluice and trickle
upon my glassy world view,
I stare like the dead,
while waiting for you.

Though I see the storm,
My heart rages in its thunder,
Knowing you'll creep in soon,
Obliterating this nightmare wonder.

Unlike this thrashing rain,
slicing up my window pane,
I've seen the beds you've lain
in my jagged dreams:
where my spirit walks free
chasing my heart's silent screams;
connected to yours
like a ball and chain.