Months are passing by
In the blink of an eye
So much unsaid
Still an empty spot on my bed

Don't play games with me

And treat me like a pawn

With no worth to my name

Like some devilish con.

I'm dying slowly
from love
A timeless death
feared by all

Suffering in agony
alone
Tortured by heartache
from you

Enduring sleepless nights
paralyzed by my nightmares
Deteriorating thoughts
plague my mind

Discomfort in my bones
shakes me to my core
Panic running through my veins
shutting me down

I now wish for death
a sweet release
From all this pain
killing me slowly

I'm lost in your eyes
drowning away
Don't worry about me
I don't want to be saved

I can't go on like this
Moping around
With my head held down
Feeling as though I'm going to drown,

Forgive and forget
Is a lesson I have yet
To teach myself
Forgiving Is letting go of the anger
And the disappointment
I seldom hold onto
Each day
Wondering why it happened
Going back in time
Trying to figure out
Where I went wrong
Maybe it was back in October
When the season was changing
And so were you
Asking for space
Because I no longer had a place
Like the leaves
Falling from the trees
Or maybe it was in December
When the year was coming to an end
And you had found a secret friend
To spend a night with
Saying it was an accident
Or was it in January
When I had betrayed your trust
From some stupid act of lust
Trading a lifetime of happiness
For a single moment of weakness
I go back and forth
Trying to remember
To somehow
Put out the last of these forsaken embers
Making sense of these last months
I go crazy with self-hate
Realizing all my past mistakes
Disgusted at myself
For letting you down
For not being around
When you needed me most
Losing your beloved dog,
Who was your best friend.
Missing a birthday,
Missing your first day at a new job
Missing your parents seperation
Missing you.
Missing you
And thinking there was still hope
That I could change
And make this work
But to do that
I have to forgive
And forget
And not let
The past come back
To haunt me
To haunt you
To haunt us
To realize I can move on from this
And live a life
Like the ones you read
From happily ever afters’
With the act of a true loves kiss
And make it go away
I will forgive
And I will forget
And maybe itll be In February
When love is in the air
When chocolate candies and giant stuffed bears
Scream out to the world
That someone loves me enough
To spend money on mushy hallmark card
That anyone could write
Maybe itll be in April
On Aprils fools day
Cause only fools fall in love
And we both know
I’m the biggest fool of them all
Or maybe itll be in May
During Cinco de Mayo
The day it all went down
Realizing that 3 years ago
We promised to make it work
No matter what
Promising though thick and thin
that we would get past
our devilish sins
And I want to tell you now
Looking back
That forgiving and forgetting
Will be the best thing
I ever did
Because you are worth it
Because you are worth more
Than self hate and past mistakes
Worth more than a lifetime of regret
And I promise you
I will forgive and forget.

Open up to me
Let me read your torn pages
As a bedtime tale

I can't walk away
not even for a day
You race through my mind
like a twisted pair of vines
tangled up in a mess
I can't even begin to address
like a virus in my brain
that drives me absolutely insane
Yet I continue to beg for more
not knowing what's in store
Hoping for the best
and expecting nothing less
Driven by madness
and sometimes even sadness
I tear myself apart
like I've always done from the start
making it hard to be
in love with a person like me
yet you still do
So maybe somethings wrong with you.

Riding in my car
one sunny day
we sang along to the music
that the radio played

You always sang
I usually listened
but I didn't care anymore
that day was different

We looked out the windows
and casually to each other
always making me wonder
if were just friends or lovers

But the ride to your house
never took to long
I always tried to stall
just to hear you sing one more song

Wear me like
your favorite tee
Draped around
your caramel skin
Clinging to your
every inch
Embracing your aroma
of decadent bliss
Hug me close
to your beating heart
And wear me out
like your favorite tee

What can I say
That I haven't said before
Other than im sorry
And I won't hurt you anymore.

This smile
Is here to stay
Thanks for
Putting it on
My sweet
Rosy face

It's always been you
from the  first time
we locked eyes
It's always been you
by my side
when my world was crashing down
It's always been you
wiping away my tears
saving me from myself
It's always been you
the voice of reason
giving me strength and courage
It's always been you
no one else
being there for me regardless of everything
It's always been me
loving you
for being more then I could ever ask for

You sing to
Every song
That ever plays
Never getting
Any
Lyrics wrong
You may
Be a little
Off key
But
It doesn't stop
You
You sing
To me
With your
Silly gestures
And eyes full
Of love
And
It makes
Me laugh
And love you
Even more
With every
Song you sing