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Dec 2015 · 748
Final
Megan Wilcox Dec 2015
It's 11:56 and I should be asleep
But my mind is wandering
in a far away place
Past memories of my late grandmother
in her final days...
I couldn't continue....
Dec 2015 · 1.6k
Fearless
Megan Wilcox Dec 2015
Cheers to the queers
Who face their fears
Of living their life
Under constant strife
By the public eye
Displaying their Pride
Like a nobel Prize
I love how the LGBT Community stands up for themselves and shows that they love themselves even if others don't.
Dec 2014 · 884
Looking Back
Megan Wilcox Dec 2014
Forgive and forget
Is a lesson I have yet
To teach myself
Forgiving Is letting go of the anger
And the disappointment
I seldom hold onto
Each day
Wondering why it happened
Going back in time
Trying to figure out
Where I went wrong
Maybe it was back in October
When the season was changing
And so were you
Asking for space
Because I no longer had a place
Like the leaves
Falling from the trees
Or maybe it was in December
When the year was coming to an end
And you had found a secret friend
To spend a night with
Saying it was an accident
Or was it in January
When I had betrayed your trust
From some stupid act of lust
Trading a lifetime of happiness
For a single moment of weakness
I go back and forth
Trying to remember
To somehow
Put out the last of these forsaken embers
Making sense of these last months
I go crazy with self-hate
Realizing all my past mistakes
Disgusted at myself
For letting you down
For not being around
When you needed me most
Losing your beloved dog,
Who was your best friend.
Missing a birthday,
Missing your first day at a new job
Missing your parents seperation
Missing you.
Missing you
And thinking there was still hope
That I could change
And make this work
But to do that
I have to forgive
And forget
And not let
The past come back
To haunt me
To haunt you
To haunt us
To realize I can move on from this
And live a life
Like the ones you read
From happily ever afters’
With the act of a true loves kiss
And make it go away
I will forgive
And I will forget
And maybe itll be In February
When love is in the air
When chocolate candies and giant stuffed bears
Scream out to the world
That someone loves me enough
To spend money on mushy hallmark card
That anyone could write
Maybe itll be in April
On Aprils fools day
Cause only fools fall in love
And we both know
I’m the biggest fool of them all
Or maybe itll be in May
During Cinco de Mayo
The day it all went down
Realizing that 3 years ago
We promised to make it work
No matter what
Promising though thick and thin
that we would get past
our devilish sins
And I want to tell you now
Looking back
That forgiving and forgetting
Will be the best thing
I ever did
Because you are worth it
Because you are worth more
Than self hate and past mistakes
Worth more than a lifetime of regret
And I promise you
I will forgive and forget.
Dec 2014 · 4.2k
Speed
Megan Wilcox Dec 2014
A few years ago
I fell in love
Racing 60 mph down a 45 zone
Clutching the seat and the door
Of a 98 nissan sentra
Hoping to get the hell out of that car
Because i couldn't stand him anymore
His reckless turned me on though
In a way that opening that car door
Seemed like an exit strategy
I didn't need to take after all
The darkness that encased the car around us
Seemed like the perfect mood setting
For the thrill we both wanted
And for me what i needed
Love didn't understand that
My fear for speed
Resembled my fear for life
Life always seemed to flash by to fast
Like it always had some place to be
And i wanted to remain still
I wanted to take a picture
Because i knew it would last longer
Instead of it always changing
And rearranging itself
Love drove me through the streets
many countless nights
Expanding my perspective
Reversing my sense of direction
A feeling of protection
That i didn't have before
Love gave me reasons
To speed through life
To not be scared
To every once in a while
Let go of the handle
That i strictly held onto
Love became my life
And i thank god
Each and every day
That i didn't take
That exit strategy
That i sped away into the night
And lived an actual life.
Dec 2014 · 10.2k
Rejection
Megan Wilcox Dec 2014
My body is a temple
And yes you may stare
But don't come up to me
like you have some kind
Of speech prepared
I'm not your baby
Or your honey bun
I'm simply delicious
And no you can't have some
You don't please my eye
Or give me the tingles
I'm pretty sure your one liners
Is a reason why you're single
I'm not you're sweet Thang
Or something you can eat
So stop eyeing me down
Like i'm a rare piece of meat
My body isn't your wonderland
for you to explore
I'm an exotic foreign country
Not a second class *****
I won't give you my number
Or snapchat name
I've heard this all before
You are all the same .
My eyes are up here
But you're looking at my chest
Last time i checked
That's not a sign of respect
You say that you're different
And not like the rest,
That you're number one
TO simply to put it
"The best"
I regret to inform
That you are highly mistaken
So you're going home tonight
To a bed that is vacant.
I won't regret this decision
And i wont keep you in mind
But If you like, take a number
Join the other guys in line
Who think I'm a *****
Or a stuck up chick
But darling pipe down
You're just another ****
I'm not that type of girl
Who randomly *****
If you like go down the street
They'll always ****
I know my worth
And what i deserve
I don't have time
For a creepy, ***-perve
I have a man who loves me
and treats me the right way
So why would i bother
And give you the time of day
Hes perfect and handsome
A real bread winner
So ill deny you again
You can't take me out to dinner
I'm just not that into you
Or however it goes
You're going to be leaving
As a one man show
You should probably go
Cause No means no
Sorry not sorry
I think you learned your lesson though.
Some guys just don't get it.
Sep 2014 · 406
Thank You.
Megan Wilcox Sep 2014
It's always been you
from the  first time
we locked eyes
It's always been you
by my side
when my world was crashing down
It's always been you
wiping away my tears
saving me from myself
It's always been you
the voice of reason
giving me strength and courage
It's always been you
no one else
being there for me regardless of everything
It's always been me
loving you
for being more then I could ever ask for
Sep 2014 · 362
You.
Megan Wilcox Sep 2014
If it wasn't for you
I would be lost
In the abyss of my thoughts
Tearing myself down
With all the pieces on the ground
But you always stick around
To rebuild me anew and better than before
Always helping me more and more
If it wasn't for you*
I wouldn't be the same
And I thank God everyday that you came.
The number one blessing in my life.
Sep 2014 · 428
Singin.
Megan Wilcox Sep 2014
Riding in my car
one sunny day
we sang along to the music
that the radio played

You always sang
I usually listened
but I didn't care anymore
that day was different

We looked out the windows
and casually to each other
always making me wonder
if were just friends or lovers

But the ride to your house
never took to long
I always tried to stall
just to hear you sing one more song
One of my favorite memories.
Sep 2014 · 436
Friends?
Megan Wilcox Sep 2014
Again and again
we try to be friends
bringing up the past
each mistake bigger than the last
maybe not all of yours
but who's keeping score?

Were trying to make this right
but it always ends with useless fights
who did what, and who did who,
its hard to keep track of what to do.

Do we just stay away
or try again another hopeful day
Do we hold on to what we had
and just forget all the bad?

Again and Again
we always wonder when
if it's okay to try
or just move on and say goodbye
Again and Again
will still always remain friends.
Confusion at its finest.
Aug 2014 · 625
Where are thou?
Megan Wilcox Aug 2014
My darling dear
I wish you were here
away from the stress
of life's daily mess
Thinking of that special someone when life gets a bit rough
Aug 2014 · 594
The Other Day
Megan Wilcox Aug 2014
I saw you
for the first time
in weeks.

My heart thudded
to a stop
and red were my cheeks.

I've missed you
so much
I could barely breathe.

But it was time for me
to go
I needed to leave.

No final goodbye
or sweet hello
Just another stranger,
A loveless fellow.
Aug 2014 · 8.8k
Drowning
Megan Wilcox Aug 2014
I'm lost in your eyes
drowning away
Don't worry about me
I don't want to be saved
Apr 2014 · 418
What's your worth?
Megan Wilcox Apr 2014
Do pricetags hang from our wrist,
Displaying our worth, on some tiny list?
Bearing a value, we somehow hold
Waiting for the day, our sign says sold.

But when is our value defined
Does it accumulate over time?
Is it confirmed at our birth
Or do we have to prove ourselves with our time here on Earth.
Apr 2014 · 1.8k
Hell.
Megan Wilcox Apr 2014
Hell* is at my door
knocking in some rhetorical rhyme
mimicking the voices
inside my head

"Get out of my ******* house"
screams my fathers voice
as his fist hits the yellow walls
of our dainty but quaint kitchen.

"You're just going to end up pregnant"
my mothers shill voice cries out
reminiscing in her past mistakes
blaming me for her horrible life.

"I was just your friend because i felt bad for you"
whined my best friend of ten years
swearing up and down
that I was a jealous, no good, compulsive liar.

"It just wasn't meant to be"
his voice echoed to my soul
breaking me down piece by piece
and walking away forever

My own personal hell
trapping me in the confines of the people I love the most
Haunting me with their displeasure
tormenting me to death

But death sounds like the perfect escape
away from this profane hell
occupying my home, mind, soul, and heart
who's still knocking at my door.
I broke down tonight and wrote what pains my heart the most. These past few months have been hell for me and i need to escape.
Apr 2014 · 552
Wilting
Megan Wilcox Apr 2014
One by one
My petals fell
And I gradually
Became a ****

My beautiful flower
That blossomed and bloomed
Wilted over the seasons
That you controlled

I thrived through spring
Flourished in the summer
Drooped in the fall
And faded into nothing in the winter

A rose full of life
Vivid with color
Became an eye sore
Amongst the other flowers

Now I am nothing
But a useless, ugly ****
Deprived of life and love
And from my only sun
Mar 2014 · 287
I can't.
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
I can't go on like this
Moping around
With my head held down
Feeling as though I'm going to drown,
How I've been feeling lately.
Mar 2014 · 326
Lets.
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
Let's go to the moon

Will count the stars

And watch the love

Of Venus and Mars
Mar 2014 · 267
Untitled
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
In losing my way
Day by day
Dazed and confused
With so much to lose
Mar 2014 · 301
Tell me
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
What can I say
That I haven't said before
Other than im sorry
And I won't hurt you anymore.
Mar 2014 · 402
My only friend.
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
When I pick up a pen
It's like catching up
with an old friend
who understands
the words I write
and what they mean
Never judging me
for the way
I make everything seem
no second glances
or unwanted stares
just a pen touching paper
a friend that only cares.
Sometimes writing helps.
Mar 2014 · 274
who?
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
If there is no God
Or man in the sky
Who hears my prayers
Or listens to me cry?
Mar 2014 · 338
My World.
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
I can't walk away
not even for a day
You race through my mind
like a twisted pair of vines
tangled up in a mess
I can't even begin to address
like a virus in my brain
that drives me absolutely insane
Yet I continue to beg for more
not knowing what's in store
Hoping for the best
and expecting nothing less
Driven by madness
and sometimes even sadness
I tear myself apart
like I've always done from the start
making it hard to be
in love with a person like me
yet you still do
So maybe somethings wrong with you.
Mar 2014 · 568
No more
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
Take the pain of before
and hold on to it no more
Let the sound of the rain
drum out all the unwanted pain.
Forgive and Forget
like there's nothing left
Dream of better days
like flowers blossoming in May
And say goodbye
to everything that makes you cry.
Mar 2014 · 435
Your voice
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
You sing to
Every song
That ever plays
Never getting
Any
Lyrics wrong
You may
Be a little
Off key
But
It doesn't stop
You
You sing
To me
With your
Silly gestures
And eyes full
Of love
And
It makes
Me laugh
And love you
Even more
With every
Song you sing
Mar 2014 · 373
Me, myself, and i.
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
I let my emotions get the best of me
Making it hard to breathe
Or even think
I am my own defeat

Not a dagger to my chest
Or a bullet to my head
Only me, myself, and I
Will be my great demise

No stranger danger
Or unwanted creeps
I am my own
Worst enemy

Its sad to know
I have no soul
To keep me alive
From myself
Mar 2014 · 697
Sold.
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
I saw your heart
it was covered in gold
Straight out the box
but already sold

To another
to my dismay
Caught me of guard
Nothing I can say

Farewell my love
Though you were hardly mine
Will meet again
Hopefully on time
Mar 2014 · 354
Untitled
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
I hear the thunder
From the dark sky above
I see the lightning
Cracking the sky into fragments
Giving mother nature
A glimpse of her power
Scaring small children
Into the beds of their parents
But I stay strong
And watch the spectacle
Of life by my window
And thank God for these moments
For without them
We wouldn't know what fear is.
Last night's thunderstorm helped inspired me
Mar 2014 · 412
Con Man
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
Don't play games with me

And treat me like a pawn

With no worth to my name

Like some devilish con.
Mar 2014 · 480
Loves Quarrel
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
My dearest joy, we are torn apart
by one of loves many quarrels
cast away like passengers
wrecked by the raging sea,
never gazing upon the new world.
By you, I am fooled,
for only fools fall in love
only to be swept away and thrown aside.
For the love that we share is no more
never finding out all the happiness
that was in store.
Taken away by the temptation of lust
destroying the entity of our trust.
I pray upon the heavens
to mend what has been lost
and give us the ability to love one another
again.
For you have my heart
and that's where it shall stay
till the end of my lonely days.
Mar 2014 · 403
Silence
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
Silence between us
for only thoughts in our head
everything unsaid
Sometimes we don't take the time to say how we feel and that is one of our biggest mistakes.
Mar 2014 · 560
Burned
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
My heart burns for you

like a thousand fires set by the sun,

raging past the fiery depths of hell,

making the stars of the night sky

burst with jealousy at the sight

of your incandescent glow.

For no man, will ever feel the warmth

only to be burned by the passion

that lay deep down inside of me.

Burned by your mark,

with a stain to the heart

a fire is forever within me.
Mar 2014 · 770
Discomfort
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
I'm dying slowly
from love
A timeless death
feared by all

Suffering in agony
alone
Tortured by heartache
from you

Enduring sleepless nights
paralyzed by my nightmares
Deteriorating thoughts
plague my mind

Discomfort in my bones
shakes me to my core
Panic running through my veins
shutting me down

I now wish for death
a sweet release
From all this pain
killing me slowly
Mar 2014 · 402
Thanks
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
This smile
Is here to stay
Thanks for
Putting it on
My sweet
Rosy face
He always puts a smile on my face and I thank God for him every day.
Mar 2014 · 608
Tee
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
Tee
Wear me like
your favorite tee
Draped around
your caramel skin
Clinging to your
every inch
Embracing your aroma
of decadent bliss
Hug me close
to your beating heart
And wear me out
like your favorite tee
Mar 2014 · 482
Bye
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
Bye
Months are passing by
In the blink of an eye
So much unsaid
Still an empty spot on my bed
Mar 2014 · 552
Heartbreak
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
A bomb went off
Did you hear it explode?
A thump in my chest
My skin has gone cold

The aftershocks are coming
There heading for you
Straight to your heart
With everything to lose

Its what you deserve
I won't even cry
I'll remember this moment
As our final goodbye
Heart breaks ****.
Mar 2014 · 1.3k
My mechanic
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
I see you,
with your grease stained arms
blackened fingernails
and your sweaty brow

And this image of you
is the one that I love
the one I grew accustomed too
so please don't ever change
for it would be heavily missed
I love my mechanic. He's my everything.
Mar 2014 · 420
My new story
Megan Wilcox Mar 2014
Open up to me
Let me read your torn pages
As a bedtime tale

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