im better
not fixed
not perfect
but better

the medications cleared my head like wind off the sea
i cant remember the last time i had a clear thought
70ml prozac along with a mix of anti psychosis to sleep with
i wake up more often not hating my life
im not suicidal
i still want pain
but i want to live

all i need
is your lips on my skin
and your hands on my hips
and magically
i feel
                            alive
(s.q)

ive recignised
my struggles
as a bird
flying into the
harsh bashing wind
as everyone watches.
                giving up
                means
         f           a       l        l          i     n              g
and yet everyone
can see im going
no where
but backwards

(s.q)

mum cried into my shoulder
and told me to never  e v e r
leave her. to never give up
to never die. i told her i wouldnt
i promised. i dont want to fail her
ever. i wont die. i wont.

(s.q)

i want to lay with you
in the quiet
and watch the fog configure around us
as the world moves
we're still
because we have no need
to move
we're together
and all i need
is your hands rubbing my skin
and keeping me warm
while your green eyes
remind me of spring to come

(s.q)

your half lilted smile
tilts my life
into swirling movements
of happiness and peace

there is a depression
deep inside my soul
im so glad
youre not too terrified
to shine your light there

(s.q)