i swirl in van gogh.
i am charcoal stains
on blue,
a smile of barbed wire
for the painter,
i am mona lisa, true.

monet, he paints me
calm waters,
water lilies floating
in solitude,
he doesn't see
the fire sprouting
in my veins.

picasso cannot stain
my heart with colour,
magritte cannot
create a masterpiece
out of my eyes.

to be immortalized
i beg in pink
lick the brush
and paint myself
alive.

end my days
in escher,
sketch myself
out of the stairway,
into the globe.

throw myself
at deaths eye,
kiss the canvas
rotten, ******,
*pretty.

Little sir, LONELY SIR
Why are you so alone?
SPEAK UP DON'T MURMUR
No flowers litter my gravestone
BECAUSE PEOPLE WALK AWAY
I just want to blend in
THEY TREAT YOU LIKE AN ASHTRAY
My problems lie within
I JUST WANT YO PLAY
I need to close my self off
IT ALWAYS RAINS ON A DARK DAY
So there is no trade-off
THEY DON'T SEE YOU ANYWAY
She's always there for me
PEOPLE CHANGE ON DOOMSDAY
She protects me from myself who is beastly
RAISE YOUR CUP
I refuse to listen
THEN BURN UP
You won't darken my mind, it glistens!
LISTEN TO MY WHISPERS
Leave me alone
SUFFER MY BLISTERS
You won't break my capstone
ALL I WANT IS A SMILE OR TWO
This is a beautiful day
NOT IN YOUR FIELD OF VIEW
You won't have your way
WE ALL RUN OUT OF TIME
What if they look for me?
THE BLACKNESS IS ONLY SUBLIME
They can always see
THEY ARE BLIND LIKE ALWAYS
This is my happy life
YOUR TRUTH IS JUST A LIE IN HAZE
Just me and my wife
SO WHY ARE YOU LONELY
You aren't really there
YOUR OPINION ONLY
  We GrEw Up OnLy To FaLl AnD TeAr
YOU JUST LOVE THE PAIN
All I seek is happiness
NOT IN MY DOMAIN
Why are you fueled by my sadness?
DOLT YOU DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE
I shall and nothing will stop me
DEMONS INSIDE ALWAYS MAKE YOU SHRIVE
They all decay eventually
I'm NoT WeLl
BuT No OnE CaN TeLl
As I SiT AnD StAy
TrYiNg To KeEp ThE DaRkNeSs AwAy
Please help me
Before the rest of me is locked away with a skeleton key
HE WON'T LAST LONG
BECAUSE I'M HERE ALL ALONG
My MiNd Is On FiRe
It BuRnS LiKe HeLlFiRe

Rise to heaven,
It's your home.

Leave us on this earth
It's a cowards home

It's that day today
somewhere years hence
When i was born
Moving on
from grumbling to gratitude
vanity to sincerity
That's when i realize
we're born new each day
with a choice and a million chances
to be better each day
And encounter the perfection that we are
just as we were created
in simplicity and love
so why not celebrate each day
greeting with a genuine smile
friends and family
acquaintances and enemies alike
Blowing candles on chocolate cakes
milkshakes
Instead why not let them burn for a change
as a reminder
of the eternal spirit...

Am I drowning? The void of my soul fills
with water as I dive deeper in order
to escape this calm catastrophe
called "living".

Where do I go next? The city lights I
see through the murky haze, hallucinating
in my final breaths. Seeing the stars of
Atlantis, the long lost beauty.
Seeing the scars of myself, the long lost
calamity.

Was I ever beautiful, or did I
become so skilled in the art of pretending,
my art of hiding, that even the best
critics couldn't find me behind these canvas
walls?

Mermaids bearing blades pierce my canvas heart,
its surface painted by countless sorrows.
Blood swirling around me, closing my eyes
as I die in a painting - the girl who
sank her own city.