I'll never be the best for you
I can't love you how I want to
I'm to afraid

Afraid of what I'm not sure..
Maybe I'm scared you'll hurt me
Or maybe
Maybe it's just intimacy that terrifies me

I've never felt more vulnerable
Than when I'm in your arms

Maybe I'm scared
Scared that I'll do it wrong
Am I enough to please you?
What if I'm no good?

I want to be your first
Your last
The best you'll ever have

The new intimacy will grow on me
You've seen inside my soul
I'm more open with you than a doorframe missing it's door
I've never been like this before
If I can open up to you
Why can't I explore
Our bodies too?

What makes me afraid?
Tell me you'll always be here
Permanent and strong
Like a great oak in the green forest

Promise me I'm safe here
Under your leaves of protection
Hide me from the world

Maybe it's society that makes me so scared
The standards if the world so strict

Hide me in your forest green
Keep me safe
This intimacy is new
I'm afraid
But not of you

What if I'm no good?
Can I be enough to please you

Will you be my first?
My last
The best I'll ever have

Don't assume you know it all
You never will
Try to hear all sides
You may be surprised
By how much pain you caused

Even though you never knew
When you find out you'll blame everything on you
But you never meant to

Don't ever
Not even for a minute
Don't ever think you're alone in pain
Take time to see the other side

I'm sorry everyone I hurt
I really am a selfish, spoiled brat
I wish I could take it all back
But I can't

Please just take time
To learn from my
From my mistakes

Dear dad
I'm sorry you thought I never cared
Mom and you never should have felt compared
I loved you all

Dear dad
I'm sorry I mess it all up
And always have
I never meant to

Dear dad
I know we've never been close
Not like me and mom
But I've wanted to
If you want to know the truth
I was afraid of you

Dear dad
I'm sorry again
I never though about your side
Before turning you into the bad guy

Dear dad
I know you tried

Dear dad
I wish I could take it all back
I never meant to hurt you

Dear dad
I've always loved you

Late at night is when I think
And try to I clear my head
I often stay awake all night
Just laying in my bed

As soon as I get comfy
Thoughts start racing in
I start to question everything
and regret my every sin

At first the thoughts are gentle
Like what will I do tomorrow
But as time crawls by; they escalate
Till I'm drowning in my sorrow

I think of all my failures
Every detail of what I did wrong
After hours of reliving pain
I convince myself I don't belong

I suddenly feel isolated
and like the silence will never end
I feel like I will never escape
There's too much I just can't mend

I feel overpowered and worthless
Like I'll never do anything right
I hide till the world fades away
And I'm awoken by the light

I realize a new day has come
It's time to put on a brave face
I put those negative thoughts away
Until I return to this place

My Love
My Muse
I'm afraid I use you
You fill my mind with creative rhymes
But what do I give back to you other than my love and time?

I take the energy you fill me with
Write what's on my mind
You say I could be your muse too
If you were as creative as I

But my dear
Creativity is in us all
It's only a matter of finding it

We all have different gifts
And just because yours isn't words like mine
Doesn't mean you can't be creative too

Find what you like to do
What calls to your heart?
Take it
Make it yours

Don't be uptight
Let the energy flow
And love
You can be creative too

You see in my mind all the time
The work you unknowingly create with me
You see the products that you, my muse, induce

And you know what my love?
I'd love to see what you could do
Using me as your muse

When you're not here to keep me warm
I'm always cold
I can't get warm
Without your touch
The feel of your arms around me
It's impossible
Impossible for me to get warm without you

You bring all the warmth and goodness to my life

I need you here
I've gotten so cold
Fill me with your warmth
You're the only thing that works