I question what its like to really live
as I am living the life others can’t afford.
I have the world at my fingertips
but it’s slipping away with the feeling
that I am not good enough.
-*KM
I read your poems and think of my daughter 23 now. She seems similar to you in a lot of your thoughts. Please let me tell you on her behalf as well as mine. If you let it, everything will come good in the end. I know those feelings you have too and believe me having been there myself. Things do get better. They really will.
Take care.