i betray myself every night,
when i sneak off
and see you in my dreams.

i can’t form the words
to tell you how i feel,
and even if i could,
no words could expresss
the pain that i feel.

the smell of love and regrets
the smell of you
on my lips

No more temporary highs,
to hide away the hurt.
No more lies,
No more “good-byes”.
No more temporary fills,
to fill the voids,
or making homes of
what we should avoid.

DOES NOT
DESERVE YOU.

i guess my biggest fear is
giving the best parts of me
to someone who brings out the worst…
it’s stripping myself of pride and ego
while they bathe in their own illusions
it’s welcoming you to make a home of my heart
while you leave me banging on your front door
crying for comfort, dying for shelter

i’m not sure what to hold onto anymore.
everything seems new,
though i’ve known it all before.
am i living my truth,
upholding my truth?
who knows...
i’m not sure what to hold onto anymore..