The hole in your heart just keeps getting deeper and deeper.
The further we get,
the lower we go,
and the less hope we have of recovering.
The last time I risked it all,
I ended up empty.
This time I'm playing it safe.
I placed my bet and it wasn't enough,
goodbye and good luck.

I sat in fear of rejection,
Wanting you to pull me close.
We both knew we were wrong,
But for once,
I wanted wrong to be right.

Don't let them silence your heart,
Don't let them tie up your wings.
They will try,
my god they will try.
More than once, twice, three times they'll pry.
Stay strong for yourself,
and for the ones who are unsure.
The life you're meant to live,
is waiting at the door.
Don't pass up the chance,
to just be yourself,
there are too many trying,
to be everyone else.
"I feel like a fake",
"I'm not happy at all",
I can't believe what I'm hearing,
aren't we in charge, don't we make the call?
You'll be told you have this thing,
they call it free will,
then they will shove it down your throat,
and say the only way you can achieve it,
is by swallowing this pill.
You'll have to say this,
look like that,
and say cheese,
It won't be until you wake up,
and see the marks on your knees.
as a receipt from selling,
your morals for cheap,
even though they told you,
you're better than the street.
How did you get here?
You thought they cared about you.
Well thats what they do sweetie,
and they don't care to who.
So spread out your arms,
and jump from the sky,
You'd rather the fall than know,
you could have learnt to run,
but all you did was crawl.

You came to me like a dream when I was sound asleep,
In the milliseconds between my heavy breathing.
You took over my unconscious and took my world away from me.
I was a slave to my addiction,
I was a slave to you.
You were a constant feeling of never wanting to wake up, but knowing I’ll one day have to.
Waking up too early would leave me longing,
Waking up too late would leave me dead.
The place you took me was magical, filled with never ending warm breezes and sandy beaches,
Blankets and your soft hands up and down my spine.
You were never one to speak, but I felt I knew you well.  
You swayed me to sleep, and for a while I thought you never slept yourself.
Your eyes didn't close, you kept them on me.
Some days when I woke up, I caught a tear in your eye,
You’d wipe it away thinking I never saw,
I pretended I didn’t,
But I never knew why.
You had secrets, a book I could never open.
Slowly I realized,
You who I thought I knew, was more like a stranger I gave all of my secrets to.
I thought that’s how love worked.
You were my home.
That was the point I should have woken up.
My mind shouted at me to listen but I never did, I was stubborn, as feelings so often make us.
We sat, and you swayed me.
You told me in that dream you’d love me forever,
How quickly once dreams seem now to be nightmares.

You found me laying in the grass.
You should have left me there.

I told you at the beginning
To take your time
I didn't mean for you
To take mine too

Falling in love the first time is easy,
you don't understand the risk.
It's like,
learning how to swim as a child,
you're unaware that you're unafraid of the unknown.
Once you're an adult, and understand the concept of how to swim,
and the possibility of drowning,
you realize,
it's terrifying.

I was a voice,
to fuel the fire behind whatever attention you were seeking.
You didn't see me,
you just listened in hopes of healing your love torn heart.
I'm no ones medicine,
nor kryptonite,
so why do you look at me so?

I loved an entirely different version of who you are
Yet in the end
The difference didn't matter
I already loved
the first, second, and hundredth version
Every version
Had me
I loved
Every version
How could I accept all of you when you couldn't accept any of me?

I wish I could show you what you look like to the outside world
I wish I could let you know how someone feels about you
How each word you write fills my insides with warmth
How you inspire me to use words that I would never touch before
Like love sick and awe
How before you I was jaded, and might still be
But you showed me a glimpse of light
A morsel of hope that there are real people still out there
Who see the world like I do
Who long for a companion, not only to lay beside, but to share their lives with
Even though I am without you, you have forever touched me
By not even touching me.
That is something that never happens
You are something that never happens
You are my once in a lifetime.

I hope you come back,
but I will carry you with me forever.

How many voices are behind yours?
Who speaks for you,
Who are you speaking for?
Who are you if not you,
And only others who have invaded your mind and left fingerprints on your heart?
I'm looking for someone I once knew.
I miss you,
Come back home.

I heard the space in your voice,
I felt the void,
I put it there too.
Don't treat me like I'm brainless,
That's the one thing I kept when I gave you my heart.
Keep sleeping alone beside me,
I'll be gone in the morning.