tonight
you told me you loved me.
a torrent of words came crashing,
spewed from a meaningless drunken mouth
whose sincerity i cannot judge to be true.
so wearily, i close my eyes to the world;
a halfhearted attempt to prevent
this impending storm from ripping me apart.
i feel it now bubbling inside me,
suppressed emotions from a time
when you told me i gave you a reason to live
but gave me no reasons when you left me to die.

if only you'd never looked at me like i mattered.