just a girl

just a girl Aug 2014

alone...

At a camp 40 ither people
Still im sitting on my own
Its not beacuse they dont like me
Or beacuse i dont like them...

I just like it better when im alone

**(c.m.h)

#social #anxiety #tw #selfharm #sh #triggerwarning #unsocial

just a girl Aug 2014

beautifull girls never get chosen

its so sad
how all the apples at the top of the tree
never get chosen

its always
the apples at the bottom they are easier
to reach

so the perfect
apples at the top start to think *
something is wrong

they just have
to wait for the right person to come across
and climb the way

(c.m.h)

#love #sad #true #brave #tw #insecurity #relatable #climb #easier #beautifull

just a girl Jul 2014

i'm gonna make it, i'm gonna be ok

i'm gonna make it
im gonna take the hundred steps

i'm gonna make it
i'll take one day at a time and it will soon be ninetynine

i'm gonna be ok
lots people have climbed this before me

i'm gonna be ok
i can do it beacuse i'm strong

i'm fine for now
but it will get better
it wont be easy
it will take a while

but i'll make it
i'll be ok..

**(c.m.h)

#suicidal #tw #selfharm #ok #fine #recovery #sh #******* #triggerwarning #secretsociety

just a girl Jul 2014

im choking on my own breath

im alive
but i feel dead
im choking
on my own breath

im myself
but still someone else
deciding who to be
is a living hell

all these thing
all this stuff
it ruins me
it fills me up

im burning down
i'm tearing up
just take it away
please... make it stop

*(c.m.h)

#dying #suicidal #tw #selfharm #selfinjury #sh #si #triggerwarning #suicidalthoughts #choking

just a girl Jul 2014

the lust or the love....

loving two people...
one not knowing, other heartbroken beacuse he knows he's your true love...
the heartbroken one being 4000 miles away...
the one not knowing being by next door...
the age difference between two true lovers....
the lack of common interests in close lovers....
the lust...
or the love...?

**(c.m.h)

i'm in a situation right now where i'm in love with two guys... both loving me to the end of the world... the one 4000 miles away is 24 (i'm 14) the one by next door is 16...
the one far away i have never met, and my parents can't know i talk to someone idk in real life....
and the one next door cut himself for me...
the one living far away ended up in hospital with bad headaches(migraines)....
and i really dont know what to do...
shall i love the one far away.... or the one next door?
cuase my heart says the one far away... but my paranoia, anxiety and logic says the one by next door....

#love #lust #true #help #tw #ldr #truelove

just a girl Jul 2014

it feels good

being loved feels good
being touched feels good
being kissed feels good
but kissing the person you really love, and wanna spend the rest of your life with... will feel good the rest of your life

*(c.m.h)

#love #kiss #good #true #loved #touch #loving #relatable #touched

just a girl Jul 2014

it's terrible

loving a person who loves you back
is a great feeling..
but loving two people who both loves you back
is terrible...

*(c.m.h)

#love #hard #suicidal #tw #selfharm #split #selfinjury #sh #si #triggerwarning