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1.4k · Sep 2024
Dopamine
Isaac Carden Sep 2024
Bored and lazy,
I lay my head down.
My eyes are closed,
Daydreaming.

I do not want
To do a thing,
A side effect
Of using.

I need a
Substance
Just to care,
Even when
I'm losing.

I'm thoughtless
When I'm sober,
Indifferent to
Refusing.

Learn from my
Mistakes;
Don't learn
By doing.

I wish I
Wasn't ruined.
1.3k · Sep 2024
Enlightened
Isaac Carden Sep 2024
Like water
We converge
Into oceans.

But first,
We diverge
Into rain.

And rain
Flows down.
It makes its way.

Don't fight
What can't
Be changed.

Don't give in
To the madness
Of contradiction.

An open mind,
Reflecting,
Isn't dazed.

Just go
And meet
The ocean

Where you
Unite with
Vastness.




.
Isaac Carden Mar 4
Im so high
Thats all i can say
And im not gonna say that

Shes so cool
I'm just being nice
Do you like
The juxtaposition
?
548 · Dec 2024
King Solomon
Isaac Carden Dec 2024
Wars are won,
Deceiving
Lost,
Believing
Strength
Weakness
Using force and schemes
Philosophers and warriors
Brain and brawn
A lion and a fox
A philosopher king
.
507 · Jan 14
My Disease
Isaac Carden Jan 14
I don't know why,
But no one likes me,
And it pains me.
I think I'm wrong
In so many ways.

If I give up,
It'll stop hurting.
My lesson in life
Is learning
To numb the pain.

I'm running on empty,
Searching aimlessly;
My mind is in a daze.

My soul is longing
For what is gone,
And now a thick fog
Pervades.
443 · Dec 2024
Solace for the Lonesome
Isaac Carden Dec 2024
A falling tree makes a sound when no one is around.

Tears that flow without a tender shoulder to fall on

Are unseen, but pain is real even if it's drowned out.

I hope you find a soul who cares; They can be found.
368 · Oct 2024
Momento Mori
Isaac Carden Oct 2024
Under dark clouds
Rain falls and thunder cracks.
Life feels serious and eerie.
It's intoxicating.

Accepting my mortality,
I'm sinking into nothingness.
The gravity of my decision
Is significant.

In death we realize
The totality of destiny.
What awaits us or forsakes us
After life we can't predict.

Maybe actions play no part.
Guilty of destruction or
Responsible for loving,
Might we get what we deserve?
340 · Jan 13
Hawt
Isaac Carden Jan 13
Give you a hug now
Pick me a flower
Take me to the mall
to shower you with attention
I'm broke. That's a given.
I'll disuade you if you listen.
So I won't talk, or mumble
Underneath my breadth.

I've been smokin'
like charcoal
Or cherry wood
On cherry pie
In reality
I'm on fire
And not in a good way,
Engulfed in flame,
And I just can't get away.
285 · Mar 9
Faith In Lies
Isaac Carden Mar 9
flames of faith burn bright
faith destroyed my life
still I have a little, but
when all the stars align
I won't start a forest fire
the flames of faith burn bright
I contain them with my skepticism
277 · Mar 18
Breathing
Isaac Carden Mar 18
A pretty girl peaks a guy's interest.
They talk a bit but she won't give in.
To her, he's a mystery to question.
Is he greater or less than expected?

He wishes he could remain that way,
filling in blanks with what she wants.
If he knew luxury is what she desires,
he'd try to stay a mystery or be a liar.

He might take her to the Ritz
and tell her he's rich.
In reality, he's no such thing,
but he dreams.
238 · Nov 2024
Unhinged
Isaac Carden Nov 2024
I'm on autopilot like
A puppet, animated

My thoughts aren't mine;
They're scripted like a movie

Perspectives, manufactured,
Change like contact lenses

Well-designed dilemmas may
Deceive my understanding

Someone waters seeds of reason,
Growing steadfast trust

They fake sound logic, wanting
Their beliefs to form, unheeded
You are NOT your ego
190 · Nov 2024
Sweet Poison
Isaac Carden Nov 2024
The more love's evaded,
The more it chases.
But, when followed,
Love races away,
So just resist it.
It will fade.
Love
146 · Dec 2024
Light my way
Isaac Carden Dec 2024
Please, be a lighthouse,
Guiding me to safety
As it storms.

I'm tired of not knowing
Where I'm going.
The horizon's formed by fog.

My ship, full of treasure,
Is worth nothing
If I never reach the shore.
I can't find a purpose. I waste my money and my time. They go towards useless things. I need something to live for. I'm lost.
132 · Sep 2024
Eyes Wide
Isaac Carden Sep 2024
Thinking you'd trust
The only one who listens,
You told me some things
I didn't want to know.

Digesting the ugly
Secrets you confessed
Kept me frozen
In awkward silence,
Shocked.
116 · Feb 16
Intoxicating Pollen
Isaac Carden Feb 16
Bees buzz past
On their way to get high
Once they hit that bees' wax
They float on the dope
And relax when they fly
106 · Feb 23
Joie de Vivre
Isaac Carden Feb 23
Morbid topics: writing on them,
Forcing what I am on paper.
Learning silence, finding words,
When less is more, much safer.

Poorly stated, why I'm writing
Is because I can't contain it.
Lost in space, I'm here, fighting,
Explaining I'm not dangerous.

My soul is lost but not far gone,
Crossing lines, without shame,
Knowing it won't leave for long;
No escape, I take the blame.

The more I think the more I lie,
Thinking life can be deciphered.
Vagueness is life's calling card.
Faith has left me falling hard.

Mental illness is a maze.
If you knew what I believe,
Your head would ache at least.
I have food for thought, a feast.

Eat before it spoils quick,
Cooling down the heat of stress.
Gorging on the air you breathe.
Life is less than what you think.

Tasteless and it makes no mess,
The breadths I breath, my chest
The love I have is way too deep
My heart, swallowed, as it sinks

To sum it up, I'm ready now.
I'm not scared of what's in store
Please don't pain me more;
I'll spiral, heading too far down.
93 · Oct 2024
Devil
Isaac Carden Oct 2024
I've never been as scared
As when I met a demon

Without seeing it or hearing it,
I knew that it was there

I felt more fear as it came near,
Radiating danger

Extra pale, a nurse was there,
Standing in my doorway

I'd say he'd seen a ghost, but
He was gone, possessed, not there

His baggy eyes looked pitch black
His staticky hair stood still

I screamed, "I love you!"
At the human form the darkness filled
83 · Jan 14
Mid
Isaac Carden Jan 14
Mid
Not special
Average every way
Can't accept it
Learn a lesson
My gift
Ignoring I'm the same

Unreal
Grandiosity
Festers like a plague
Big dreams I can't say
Are insane and I'm ashamed

Humble me
Sink it in
Not smart
Average
IQ of 100
Most mid
Does accepting insecurity make you more secure?
83 · Nov 2024
Divine
Isaac Carden Nov 2024
An elegant woman stands poised
In a dark room illuminated by soft light.
She wears an emerald-green silk dress.
Her figure is blurred but fine.
She comes to mind but why?
83 · Oct 2024
Ethereal
Isaac Carden Oct 2024
As I was laying down,
Someone covered my eyes.
Next, they held my hands.
I felt us floating up.

Carried far from where I lay,
I woke up at a different place - a small
Apartment where she stays.

Her diamond skin
Stole my gaze
As did the tears
She wept.

She was beautiful.
Her hair was blond,
As bright as the stars.
But memories fade.
82 · Oct 2024
Other Side
Isaac Carden Oct 2024
Vague questions
Posed remain
Unanswered
And allure me.

They say the
Grass is
Greener on the
Other side.

Burning time,
I'm searching for
The green that
Shines the
Brightest.
81 · Jan 14
Mortal
Isaac Carden Jan 14
Tragedies were beautiful
In Greek theatre,
And still they're powerful;
Maybe death's a favor.
Sadness brings me down to earth,
Far from heaven and the angels.
Still I'm lucky,
Knowing hell would be much worse.
75 · Sep 2024
Morbid
Isaac Carden Sep 2024
I may not hear them,
But they're not dead.
I notice them at times.
They sway my mind
And turn my head.

They used to make me hurt,
Reminding me of things
I try not to remember.
They played their games
With me right in the center.

They'd mumble to each other
And utter parts of phrases
To hold my interest
And keep me thinking.

They knew my private thoughts
And heard my monologue.
I always felt like I was watched.

They made me feel ashamed,
They forced me into fantasy,
And soon my mind was gone.
This poem is inspired by the experiences I've had as a schizophrenic.
47 · Mar 21
My illicit life
Isaac Carden Mar 21
It's odd that I love my life like this.
Reality's taste has hints of hell;
I stand the smell by ignoring it.
I swear that life isn't what it seems.

To stop the pain, I can give up hope.
I'll let myself wait for what won't start.
I feel alive, dreaming ways will part.
Right now, I am numb to ev'ry thing.

This life tries to break my naive heart.
Too far, it's not near enough to sting.
I recognize when I hear a buzz.
Relaxed I just let it do its thing.
I've heard that love is sweet poison that leaves you hungry and leads you blind.

I've heard that love is war. It ends the peace and makes the heart fight for more.

The love I have feels dangerous; uncertainty seems routine, not dire.

You can put up with abuse and drive love away or avoid it all and fan the fire.

Your love might be in peril; your dear one's feelings are difficult to gauge.

You try to get a read on their elusive character, but there's an opaque haze around their aura.

The less they say, the less you know of them, the more of what you hope for is expected.

What do you wish to hear? Do you want to know what's true? What have you assumed?

Cognitive dissonance grows as unrealistic beliefs are never realized.

Lovers idolize their beloveds, but, inevitably, reality hits and their true colors show.

— The End —