If I admit that something you did to me hurt my feelings then that is me being vulnerable to you because I could have just Easily acted as if what you do does not bother me, but I don't and that's the advantage you have over me.

I'm very much comfortable being alone
I enjoy nothing more than my own
Company
Happily free to do what I want and tend to myself
My confidence is built only by the way I view myself
Yes my loved ones opinions count but which one matters most than your own?
Yes it's nice to have a lover or date
But you have to learn to be happy with yourself
Before your even happier with someone else

How is it possible
to have a massive amount of feelings
for someone who obviously doesn't even care for you?

And someone please ...
Tell me how to get over
This ****...

Please do not get angry at me for feelings that I cannot control

Let me kiss you
I know your heart hurts ~

Don't fall in love with him.

My Depression is beginning  to feel like a stickyness on my fingers that I can't quit wash off

Breathe. Look me in the eyes. Kiss me.

I loved you, you saved me
but with you I always felt the need to look over my shoulder

I loved him more
Because with him, I felt safe enough to fall asleep in his arms
I felt no need to look over my shoulder.

Please do not take any more moments for granted
                           Time is our enemy
                   who is rushing to the finish line
                              Kiss your crush
Hop on that roller coaster ride and scream your love to the world, smile when times are bad, things could be even worse, do something productive everyday and end it with a simple thanks to the skies for blessing you with another day, be greatful and watch your life drastically change for the better.

I was fine before I met you

       &


I'll be just fine when you leave.

One thing you'll regret most of all
Is staying quiet instead of saying what you feel
Because nothing's worse then unsaid words, un expressed feelings, or a mistaken broken heart.

Dont let me go just yet

Theres a reason why we've met

Dont you remember our first night

Together?

You told me that the moon should be

Jealous because my eyes were the

Only thing lightening up your night.

Brain

Could you give me a **** break?
Your always running and scared
Why the hell are you so scared?
And sad? What did the insane world do to you that made you so closed off yet powered on?

Heart

Your sneaky I can't trust you
You make me love to easily
Do you remember my neighbors?
The sons? I've never even had a conversation with them all they do is stare at me all the time and you have me thinking they feel much more.
Leave me be please. With true emotions.


People

Stop hurting me. I know you don't care but your just making me hate the world even more, "your pushing me so further into the dark that I'm starting to see tunnels, and people who live there."

I had a dream about you last night...

You were running but you didnt seem to see me

I called your name but you didn't seem to hear me

I was there all along but you never noticed me.

I know now that my dream was just a mirror reflecting the reality of my situation.

So in reality
Im always there, and you ALWAYS avoid me.

I couldnt sleep last night because i was in your dream with you
Satisfying our lusts of adventures

They are our ESCAPE

our Fantasy

Our Ecstasy.

Our way out.

They are our ESCAPE

Our FANTASY

Our ECSTASY

Our way out.

It is most beautiful but tragic to actually love  someone, and know that it is possible to loose them.

How can you be a thousand miles away and I still feel you here with me?

Maybe in this life
We are separate, worlds apart
But I know deep in the depths of my dark dreary heart that in a past life, your were mine and I was yours.

You should only fear things you do not know.

I'm so sorry baby
I'm so scared
Your words sound like the most beautiful melody ever made
I'm trying to believe everything you say to me but I've been lied to before, so sorry if I come off a little rude and ignore your messages at times but you have to keep pushing me to actually see that you love me
Love shouldnt be hard, it should be magical, you should know from the scars I've shown you and the stories I've told you at the crack of dawn that my past is a storm awaiting to pass over
I'm so sorry baby
I hope you really do love me
I hope this is truly the real thing, I hope that when things get hard you and I will stand even closer together and show the world that our love is unbreakable
I will love you unconditionally but just remember that I'm so scared

I'm sorry that I may not be the hottest of the bunch,
Or maybe not have the highest confidence ,
I might be shy at times,
Im clumsy
I'm quiet when I'm nervous

But I'm an adventure
A mystery with a catch,
I will kiss you until your lips go numb
And God ****** I will make you feel something

When I first saw you
Everything around me slowed down
I couldn't help but notice that
Your eyes glowed brighter than any star I've ever laid eyes on
You smiled like the world around you didn't exist
You gave me some kind of unexplainable hope that maybe life is not as bad it's been for me
And this one feeling alone in my stomach terrified my every being
To think that this could be love at first sight.

The worst part about break ups

Seeing them do the same things they use to do with you , with someone else.

I will forever wish for a off and on button on emotions.

How could you tell me we'd be together forever

But one argument could change us from lovers to strangers.

Yearning for the night I can roll over and find your lips instead of a lousy text message
Or when I have a bad dream and your right next to me to wake me and tell me that i was dreaming so let's go make some coffee and you can tell me all about it

Im takin longer puffs
Im drinking eight more beers
Cause theres no tellin what happens when night comes near
The clock hits midnight our hearts are racing
And baby Im lovin the way your lips are tasting
The musics roaring
The bass Is shaking
And I have no idea how im getting home tonight
But I wont fight
The temptation To hold back my tears
Im way too depressed and wisers than my years
So im using this night as an excuse to drown my sorrows In these drugs
And hopefully the next day i'll remember what I did and who I was

I could describe my heartbreaks in the most saddest way
But most of all in my eyes they were black and white in slow motion
A trance of darkness
Drowning in it deeper than any love I've ever witnessed
And the only question swirling in the back of mind was could I ever love again?

My Ears burst awake soothed by the thunderous Melodies Of the storm outside my window
The lightening crackling and lighting up my dark bedroom
My hand crawls across the bed reaching for you
Wanting you
Yearning you
But I remember that your gone
My body is not use to you being away
Its to imune to the way you take care of it
My lips are slowly going back to its color
At least ever since you've been done with them
My heart is no longer red and pumping
In fact im conviced its left my body
Along with my mind and my soul
And you
Your all Gone

Who cares if your life is terrible
Or if it's the greatest
Where all gonna die anyway so do what you want.

Someone tell me why I have the overwhelming feeling
To lay down and Die
But I will never take my life
But what if Im never satisfied
I'd let someone else hold the gun
While the bullet sounds the sky
And the birds fly out and cry
I'll be Floatin up and high
GOODBYE

If he doesn't look at you like your the most precious thing in the world or doesn't treat you like your worth a billion bucks then darling he's not the one

Make sure he's proud to show you off to the world and loves to tell everyone how much he loves you, make sure he knows how to be a gentlemen and holds the door for you and makes sure you get home okay

If he doesn't look you in your eyes from time to time to tell you how much he loves you or makes no effort to express that love then honey walk away from that man

Know your worth and even add some change to it. Your amazing, make sure the guy you give your heart to knows that.

I just wanna know how guys can use a girl
Abuse her emotionally
Engage in ****** contact
Then leave her
And doesn't feel a **** thing.

she should be celebrated everyday

Not just mothers day.

Who wanted to hear about that scary dream you had last night?
Did he kiss you slowly to savour the moment? He asked me what I wanted to be when I was older and I told him I have no idea, but when he told me his dream he asked me do I think his dream is stupid and I told him it was smart, I smiled and told him to believe in himself like I do
He smiled and kissed me
Told me I was the sweet one

have you ever met a sweet boy?
I have
He'd send me multiple messages to make sure I'm okay, he promised to never give up on me and I'm not even a fan of forever but how come he makes it sound so promising? So belivable?
He holds me like he'll never get this chance again and traces his fingertips along my body as if admiring every part of me
And when Im around him I can't ever get the stupid grin on my face to go away because he makes me this way

Have you ever met a sweet boy?
Who'd  die for you, not because he hates his life because he loves his friends and family but he would give it all up just to see you live your life

Let me ask again
Have you ever met a sweet boy?
Who you only knew for only a month but you can see yourself with them for the rest of your life? A boy who goes out of his way to put a smile on your face? A boy who would move mountains to see you, one who would build a raging fire to keep you warm in the cold weather and would tell you a bedtime story even though you two are both too old but it comforts you?

have you ever met a sweet boy?

There is no easy way



                               To say hard things

You should be afraid to loose me
Because I know the real you
The one who kept me awake till 4am crying your eyes out
Then you told me you were embarrassed
You said:  guys don't do that

Fill your emptiness in my emptiness so I can at least feel something.

I loved him because he was the only boy that was actually afraid of loosing me.

You kissed my scars that I stubbornly placed on my skin
How could you not expect me to fall in love?