Tightning these loose ends will never be snug all around
Something will always slip through my grasp
As I'm picking up the pieces you'll still sleep sound
I'll always find a way to change but I'll never transform into who I want to be

Things will go fine for a while and it seems I'll never cease to smile
When things are going well I always seem to find a way to make it hell
Does anyone try as hard as me to make sure they have personality?

Find me where I don't want to be found
Talk to me when I'm lost without words
Hear me where I don't think I'll be heard
Live as though I never existed at all

I yell to be heard
No more will I be invisible
I'm not scared
I will rise above the rest
The base in my voice boils the blood in my chest

As I lay exhausted from my efforts to be appreciated
I hear them speak as though I've never spoke at all
I saw them walk through me like I was a ghost
If I'm a ghost why can't I walk through walls
Pain is my only escape that listens to me most

I never thought I could feel this again
To have a blue sky even when it rains
I know that I should calm down

My oh my the seasons have changed
Autumn passed and yet another winter has left me deranged
Is it love or is it just a breath of fresh air?
Never before have I met someone so rare
Should I fall in or should I step back?

Any distance is too far from my arms
I'm glad that we both leave each other so charmed
Her lips can flip all my frowns
Her voice makes me float and leaves my soul earthbound

I know that I need to **calm down

Trying is just another thing to keep me down
Smiling is just stretching my engraved frown

I saw the world around me up to a  standard
I'm below it with the environment making me stranded

They say I have potential
I don't think I can leave my mind's shell

Long ago I exposed myself to the truth
They don't see that I'm just wasted youth

Hope comes with a cost
The hopeless who made a future for themselves because among those who are eternally lost

They think I have it all together
They're confused when my mind is somewhere else
Handicapped by the world I've been forced into
They don't see what I have to see every day
I'm not worse off
Why couldn't someone less fortunate switch lives with me
I'm never going to be anything
I just waste air and resources on earth
I'm wasted youth

Scream* into my ear every word I wanted to *hear

From you

Your brown eyes make me want to hide
Looking into them make me want to cry

Why must the odds make it impossible for you to be mine?

Every image of us I need to leave behind
In my arms is where you belong in the imagined reality in my mind

Alone I've always been, loneliness is the only future that can be *seen

I've put my life on hold 
The view of my cigarette smoke passes the time
Patting myself on the back for not being bold 
The days before you left, I threw on my oldest clothes so you would distance yourself from me
It was easier to push you away than to keep myself away from you 

Maybe I'll cut the grass because the sound of summer and the memories of your voice are driving me insane 
Trying to hang with you is my most lost bet 
What I don't get, is that I'm not even missing you yet 

Everything is normal 
Life is still the same
I have to work for the next 6 days 
I'll never have a reason again to ever say your name 
The day I miss you, is when I'll observe happy people my age in summer's stellar rays

That could just be the end of me
Hopeless it is, hopeless it will remain
Possibility will cease to be

In the event of the unspeakable happening
I will lose all of my sanity
Blood will be shed
My wrists stained with red
This rope necklace was inspired by you and my mind that is recklace

I want peace of mind
All I need is a sign to leave these thoughts behind
I put out all of my best qualities, and all I got was a smile and **amity